Sunday, October 22, 2006
~ 3:41 PM ~
"Almost Here"
(feat. Brian McFadden)
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here
*I try and make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I'm living life day to day
It's never really easy but it's ok*
~ 3:52 AM ~
Oct 22 2006, Sunday, 3.53am - Windy.
Unable to slp at this hour, was goin through photos of u and me, juz by looking at the photos i noe i miss u soooo much. But i aso noe that u have no time, no time for me, maybe i am really juz a really normal fren to u. Sad, but that might be the fact. So wad if i really love u, u will nv nv understand how i really feel. Is not that i nv say it out before, but u always juz avoid the topic. Sometimes i really juz wish things are juz simplier, ppl are juz simplier. Why is everything so complicated?
I really juz wish to hold u in my arms, without saying i love u. People ard mi might say i'm silly, but i am still like that. I am still the same me, the one u knew 3 yrs ago.
.. // LuCiFiEd \\..
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
~ 7:36 PM ~
11 Oct, Wed, 7.38pm, Misty, Thanks to the haze.
Today is the eve of my driving course, yes, i am finally startin my course but it will be a stay in course for the next couple of weeks depending on how fast i can pass. Will be stayin in Sembawang Camp, the camp seems sucky, went there for the course breifing, the place suxs, the ppl there suxs as well... oh my... sian... but no choice still hav to face it. Feeling kinda sad to go for this course, this will mean that for the next 2 months i wun be able to play with choo choo, fedrick, chris and all my fellow drivers in SBAB MTLO. I sure will miss them alot.
Anyway called mei, this afternoon when rotting on the sofa, told her wad was running in my mind.
Yes, is "YOU", the image of u juz keep appearing in my head, the memories we shared, the joy we had and the path we walked together. I really miss u, but i noe u will never noe. If i can ever turn bck time, i will ask u to giv mi the chance to let mi hold ur hand and walk down this road together, hand in hand till the day we die. I really like you alot. Dun ask mi why, i juz noe i like you. No special reasons. Staying in from tml on wards is making it worse, not being able to see u is such a terrible thing for mi, is as if a torture i hav to go through. Will there ever be a chance dat we can be together? You really nv consider it before? Or u really think good frens is enuff?
If so i really hav nothing to say but ask u to consider and think bout it....... if u ever see this post.
..// LuCiFiEd \\..
