Monday, May 29, 2006
~ 3:24 AM ~
Well finally got the show Da Vin Ci Code le... not a bad show, i always enjoyed shows bout religions especially toking bout Christians, haha no offense though. Anyway went to 85 for dinner, met up with irene as well, so happen to bump into weian and miao over there, so had a little chat. Miao told mi a little secret story which cannot be revealed online, after hearin the story, it starts to make mi wonder. Are ur frens really wad they are like how they project themselves in front of u? Haha i am starting to have doubts, well is not like i hav always trusted ppl ard mi 100%. It depends on who as well, ppl like Miao, Lao Da and Da Jie, of cuz i have no doubt and no secrets. I hold no secrets in front of them. Cause i noe they noe mi too well to see through when i am lying and when i am not... so there isnt a point to lie to them. So therefore ppl out there reading this entry, pls beware of the people ard u,specially those u call frens, not saying that u shldnt trust anyone... but dun trust blindly ba i guess...
Goin to JB next week with Da Jie and Iris, on the day before my Grad Ceremony, anyway i hav nothing i need to do, so i might as well go visit Johor when i still can, haha goin in to see if i can get a nice shirt for my Grad Ceremony. And the most important mission on our JB trip, is to accompany Da Jie accomplish her dream, something which she has always wanted to do. Haha but i shall stop here as it is... wun reveal too much.
Da jie, read ur blog not long ago, noe that u will be goin through tough weeks soon... sadly i wun be ard to 陪你熬过. I noe work has been rather shitty for u, but i guess u hav no choice either ba... Juz hope your rainy season will pass by soon, very very soon, and thus see the beautiful sunlight after the great thunder storm. Well, remb bout my that previous post which says that i am worried bout u after i head into Tekong? I have seen ur reply regarding this, and i hope u really can make it... juz like wad u told ur brother, i will be here, always here, whenever u feel lost or alone...dun fear, juz turn ard and u will find that i will always be at somewhere not far away from u, being there for u... This is a promise!!!
..// LuCiFiEd \\..
~ 1:56 AM ~
Tired of life,
Tired of handling all the shit in life...
Just so Tired...
How i wish i can rest...i really need one...
..// LuCiFiEd \\..
Thursday, May 25, 2006
~ 1:39 AM ~
Now is like 1.37am in the blasted morning, i shld be in dream land long ago, but after much tossing and turning, i am here writing an entry. Just dunno wad got into mi today, think i woke up at the wrong side of the bed, been feeling very irritated the WHOLE day, and i mean VERY. dun ask mi why...i dunno as well, think i got PMS liao... scolded many ppl today,omg, some of them i DUNNO at all one wor. shitty? for venting my anger on the innocent ppl...haix lets see who did i scold today.
1) The counter guy at GV Tampines,
went to collect tixs for mummy and daddy for their movie using korkor's name and credit card. this dumb ass juz cannot handle 8 or more digits sia, i repeated my brother's IC number like 5 times, got so irritated with him and asked him,
Me:"wad is ur fucking prob with numbers... cant u type 81xx xxxxA in the god damn correct order, how many times do u need mi to repeat?"
2)One Indian Auntie at Tampines Mall,
Bought a pillow for kor kor, so as usual i gotta carry all the stuff... i was minding my own business and walking by the side while tokin to daddy, this stupid black dumb fuck appeared in front of mi, she refused to fark out of my way, so i juz stared at her, she scolded mi for not letting her pass, WTH right? Yes, given my temper today, i scolded her back.
Me: "Why must i let u pass? there is such a big fucking space beside mi, u blind or u too fat to pass through?"
Her:"Wah, still so rude."
Me:"Den u still wan mi to pay u respect ar? need to kneel down and apologise? ok ok i'm sorry, can u juz kindly FUCK-OFF, so i can pass?"
OK, after that i juz walked passed her by squeezing through. Jus as i tot everything came to an end, daddy scolded mi upside down for being so rude and guai lan... well i guess is juz in the blood ba... =x
3) Parents,
Had a couple of arguments with them due to many stupid little things dat juz pisses mi off,
Example:
Collecting the tixs at 6.20pm when the show is at 7.40, being afraid that the tixs will be gone.
I tried to explain to mummy that we had already BOOKED the damn tixs so it is ours... no need to worry. OMG, she juz cannot understand plain simple chinese...and insisted that we shld get it once we stepped into TM. NVM, next time i shld try telling her in Hokkien, see if it works...
Anyway conclusion, i am having PMS...dunno why aso....god damnit...
..// LuCiFiEd \\..
Monday, May 22, 2006
~ 3:14 AM ~
我知道你很难过
爱一个人
需要缘分
你何苦让自己
越陷越深
别傻得用你的天真去碰触不安的灵魂
每一天只能痴痴的等
爱一个人别太认真
你受伤的眼神令人心痛
没有一个人
非要另一个人
才能过一生
你又何苦逼自己
面对伤痕
我知道你很难过
感情的付出不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过昨天是恋人
今天说分说就分手
别问你的痛
要怎么解脱
多情的人注定伤得比较久
爱若变成了刺
思念也成了痴
也许心碎是爱情最美的样子
Sunday, May 21, 2006
~ 3:05 PM ~
Today is juz another fine sunday with a little rain and cooling wind blowing in through the windows of my room. Woke up at 12 plus, having nothing to do gave mi some free time to think bout many many things. Here r some tots that went through my mind. The countdown to the start of my NS life i getting nearer and nearer le, i do admit that i dun wanna go in now, not at this moment, not at this period of time. There r things and people dat i cant juz be not worried about. Yes, i admit that i'm still young, so wad rights do i hav to worry or even take care of ppl.
To me, i dun take it as taking care of her, but more of being there for her. From wad many ppl see from my past entries, seeing that i hav been goin to chiong more and more lately, is not becuz i enjoy chionging, i juz dun mind.
The most important thing is i hope to be there with her, making sure that things dun go wrong. Hoping that she will get home safely everytime after we hang out till the wee hours of the night. I noe there r many things in her heart that she dun wish to reveal, even to a close fren like me, i wun say that i understand fully wad is it that she is goin through at this very moment in life, but till a certain extend i understand the pain and suffering she is in and i am sorry for not being able to do anything to make things better. So therefore i can only find time to keep her company since i have nothing else on hand that i have to handle.
But what is goin to happen once i leave the Singapore main island?
She is the only one that i cant be not worrried bout, many people say i am thinking too much, but how many of u really noe wad she is goin through? So if u dun noe, i hope u all wun criticise wad the both of us are doing. Yes, i noe she is old enuff to take care of herself, i noe she is old enuff to noe wads wrong and right...but isit wrong to be juz worried bout a close fren, someone whom i treat as my real elder sister? I DUN THINK SO.
I noe one day she will get to see this post, sooner or later, juz wanna to tell u...
"no matter wad shit happenes in ur life, i am there for u, if u really do treat mi like a brother, cuz i long regarded u as my elder sister le."
During this period of time, u played a big role in my life as well, if it wasnt for u, life will be so much more dull den before. I appreciate all the things u hav done for mi as well, the time u spent, the concern u gave and the money that u had put in. I'm sorry at this current point in time i cant do much for u, but like wad i say once i get my pay in NS, u r the 1st person that i wun forget.
Hey sis, i really hope things will turn better for u soon, stay strong...be strong... i really dun wish to leave u at this point in time but thanks to the government i have to with no other choice. But like wad u said, i wun be goin in forever, there will be times when i do get to come back and step on the Singapore main island, when that day comes, i hope u will still hav time to entertain this "crappy", "lor soooo" and "bo liao" brother of urs.
..// LuCiFiEd \\..
Friday, May 19, 2006
~ 5:21 PM ~
Yesterday was juz a normal thur for mi, till bout night time ba, haha was slping the whole day at home till 6 plus woke up had my dinner and watched some TV and headed down to OPH to meet da jie. Yes, it was thur night so it was Ladies Night over at MU, Man Zai joined us as well after his work, so we headed there to finish our Chivas. Surprised to see Jason there, cuz we wun notified before-hand, anyway with Jason was Sharon, John, John's sis Marilyn and Victoria came shortly after. Within half an hr, Sharon was laying on my shoulders liao, cuz she drank too much le, one of her fren made her drink a Martell on the rock, yucks, after her rest as usual, we started to play all the games, Dice and Direction, with Da jie, Sharon and my Shi-Fu,John. Haha got scolded by Marilyn cuz she accused me of bullying her brother John haha, WTH i was the one being bullied lor LOLX. Anyway had lots of fun last night with them, nice grp of ppl to hang ard with. Seems like i am becoming someone who goes chiong so so damn often liao, OMG... does that mean i am a chiong-ster? Haha anyway since i am not occupied with anything or anyone in life, i see no harm goin to night spots to train back my drinking level and noeing new ppl. Anyway, i finally got sabo-ed last night, remb bout the 2 entries before this i said, if Sharon is willingly to drink the water-fall den i will drink as well? Haha well, Sharon ganged up with Da Jie juz becuz both of them r gers, my god...kanna bullied... so lan lan as promised i tried the flaming Water-Fall with the 2 of them. haha wasn't that bad, not as bad as M-16 i find. But it is really kinda hot when u drink it down. Drink liao really muz rest awhile sia, if not sure faint one haha. So 
thanks to my darling Sharon and Da Jie dat i almost died last night. =p
This was the Water-Fall before lighted.
Kanna Sabo-ed, from left, Sharon, Me, Dajie's head haha
The 2 crazy ger who almost got me drunk.
(Dajie & Sharon)
Me and my darling Sharon haha. Was kinda high liao, thanks to her. =x
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
~ 3:14 AM ~
寂寞到底是什么？
是否是一种需要人陪在你身旁的一种感觉？
如果是如此，那么我是否是个寂寞的人呢？
我不否认当我生病时，我希望能有个人在我身旁照顾着我。
我不否认当我在街道上行走时，看到情侣们手拉着手，我会感到一阵凄凉。
我常对自己说，只要我对别人好一点，老天爷总会有疼我的一天。
我听人说过，人的一生，八个钟头用在睡觉上，八个钟头用在工作上，剩下的八个钟头就找个自己觉得长得还过得去，也有点喜欢的人，一起度过。
这也是我的人生的哲理，但是真的有几个人真得做得到？
我自认我的要求不高，待人也不错，只是为何总是和“她”有缘无分？
我只是想和心爱的人在沙滩手拉着手一起漫步，听着海浪，说这心事，说这各自的生活里的点点滴滴。
看来老天爷也不是那么的照顾我吧。
许多人都跟我说 ：“不是缘分不到，只是时辰未到”
要不然就是说：“别担心，还有朋友在你身边吗。”
我不是不知道我有好朋友在我身边，但不管如何，他们充其量也只是朋友。
你会把你的一切的心事都告诉他吗？ 每一个人多多少少都会有些隐瞒，有所保留。
我只希望能遇到一个能和我一起分享彼此的苦与乐的人，这个要求很过分吗？
算了吧，可能我命犯孤星，注定一人到老。
还是那句话， “一切只能随缘吧。”
所以，如果你已经找到了你的那个“她”，“他”。
请记得，好好的珍惜他。别让爱火烧尽，别让缘分走到了尽头。
有时失去了的人和事，是一辈子都挽回不了的。
大姐，感谢你在我这段人生当中扮演了个最重要的角色，陪伴我度过数不尽的风风雨雨。我真得很感激你，想对你说声 “谢谢你，我最最最最爱我的大姐！！！哈哈哈哈哈哈”
..// LuCiFiEd \\..
Sunday, May 14, 2006
~ 10:15 PM ~
Wad a nice Sunday it was, haha slept till 3-4pm so shiok sia... as usual went to Music Underground last night, was quite a disappointing trip, many many things happened, Da Jie lah, Jason lah, Kelvin lah, Vincent lah and even Sharon and Victoria. Da jie and i kinda regreted goin last night. But well we had nothing to do mah after watching MI-3. Anyway that show was damn nice haha dunno why aso leh, there wasnt any particular part dat i like the most, maybe juz overall nice ba... Oh now i remb something, one nice thing was Maggie Q's legs, woah...when she came out from the sports car, i bet many guys must be drooling ba haha. After watching the show, we called Wen-Wen a.k.a Man Zai... to join us at MU, if not we got no drinks dat night. So in the end Da jie, Man Zai and Jason shared one bottle of Chivas, starting was rather uncomfortable den till the back everyone were more relax liao so didnt go and think that much.
Da jie had lots of fun dancing and running around ba, haha as for mi... as usual i sat there to drink and play games, last night we didnt hav any dices, so we play a game which is similar to sissors paper stone, but i duno the name for the game. It was so so so fun, haha Sharon and John were the ones who taught mi the game, juz becuz Sharon keep losing to John so she taught mi and den ask mi to play with him, WTH right? haha
Anyway had lots of fun playing that game, anyone wanna learn? i dun mind teaching cuz is such a fun game i think all shld noe how to play LOLX.
Bout 2 plus our Chivas was gone le, so we had no more drinks liao, lucky for Sharon, her fren got her a M-16 to drink, IT SUCKS ASS MAN DAT DRINK...dunno why the guys there like it so much, Sharon and i hate it... She insisted dat both me and her shld finish the drink... so no choice, she drank half den i drank the remaining half. IT WAS SO HOT....yucks... We tot it was the end of it, GOD NOES they bought Sharon another cup of M-16, wah faint sia.
I pretend to sleep on Sharon's shoulder acting blur, haha but she juz continue hitting mi... so sian... so no choice gotta wake up lor. We didnt really wanna drink that cup, so we decided to play the game again...loser for 3 rounds will drink lor, fair mah? haha
Lucky thing Sharon drank most of it, haha sorry ar ger...
So basically means i had many diff drinks aso...lets see...
1) Chivas
2) Martell
3) M-16
haha da jie keep asking mi to drink water fall but i dun wan and i dun dare...haha but she said before i go in army muz at least try once with her...so guess i am in a quite lan lan situation LOLX...hhmm if she can convince Sharon to drink aso i dun mind trying haha at least all die together ma...hor da jie???? LOLX...
..// LuCiFiEd \\..
Friday, May 12, 2006
~ 2:34 PM ~
Went to Fullerton to meet up with da jie to go hav lunch, the 2 of us were like idiot walking ard, juz to search for a food court. Haha end up when we finally found the damn place, i decided to have Mac instead. Anyway we headed to the Mac near Fullerton, had a simple spicy meal and chit chat-ed with her till we felt damn cold, as it was raining outside den. We walked out of Mac and decided to go find my dearest Lao Da, who works nearby as well. After meeting up, was asked to play pool on the night itself. I looked at Da Jie and she gave mi the go ahead look, cuz i was supposed to go chiong with her at Devils and Music-Underground one...sorry jie.
Anyway went home to rest awhile and met up with Lao Da, Da Ge and Zixing to play Guard again. haha but didnt put in alot of attention as i was kinda worried bout Da Jie cuz of the fucked up weather last night. Anyway after our game, as usual we went to Geylang for supper, was surprised when we got there... Normally will have a few gers to see one lor at least, last night was empty, i repeat, EMPTY... After dat den we noe after asking some uncle who looked like a pimp, he told us that there was a raid juz now, a police lorry came, therefore for the next week days, there wun be any gers to see liao haha. So after which we headed to eat You Tiao and drink Dou Jiang. Juz when we were bout to head home, i receieved a call, and from the ring tone, i noe from the 1st moment that it was Da Jie,
i told myself, "siao liao la, think she drunk le, need to go down fetch her and bring her home."
But when i answered the call, she sounded drunk, and was very very upset, cried a little, i told her to stay at where she was and i will rush down dere immediately, but she chose to come down to find mi instead at Geylang. After heard the whole story le, understand how she felt... but i dunno wad to say but juz be there for her.
Da jie, really sorry, sorry for not being able to accompany u... making things ended up like these...sorry... if i can ever choose again... i'll nv leave u alone anymore...never...
Sorry....
..// LuCiFiEd \\..
Thursday, May 11, 2006
~ 7:08 PM ~
歌曲：他一定很爱你
我躲在车里手握着香槟
想要给你生日的惊喜
你越走越近有两个声音
我措手不及只得楞在那里
我应该在车底不应该在车里
看到你们有多甜蜜
这样一来我也比较容易死心
给我离开的勇气
他一定很爱你
也把我比下去
分手也只用了一分钟而已
他一定很爱你
比我会讨好你
不会像我这样孩子气
为难着你
我应该在车底不应该在车里
看到你们有多甜蜜
这样一来我也比较容易死心
给我离开的勇气
他一定很爱你
也把我比下去
分手也只用了一分钟而已
他一定很爱你
比我会讨好你
不会像我这样孩子气
为难着你
他一定很爱你
也把我比下去
分手也只用了一分钟而已
他一定很爱你
比我会讨好你
不会像我这样孩子气
Monday, May 08, 2006
~ 10:09 PM ~
Instructions:
1. Read the passage carefully
2. Grade yourself with the grading system at the
end of the passage
after reading.
3. Leave ur name and result by the tag board. Thanks
Section A: Orrler Exeminetion (60 marks)
Question:
Singalella why become rich ?
Koo zhar wu chee ay char bor kia, Singalella.
She got two sisters, but the stepmarder and the
sisters all damn
kuai-lan, so she quite zhia-lat oso.
Last time Singalella got own maid, but now she
become the amah.
Everyday must cook lah, clean lah, simi sai mah
bao-kah-liao.
If her sister say liak kar zhuak, she liak.
Tak jit zho kah tau-hin.
CPF poon boh.
But then, kay piak eh ah-pek got one son call Ah
Ming got party.
So he say, "oeh, long chong lai ah."
Singalella very happy because she never go party
before but then
her step-marder say, "Lee Mana eh-sai kee, this
one bahru lu eh
sisters wu standard."
Then Singalella must zho sui-sui for her sisters
and step-marder.
Tap pai how, buay zhia, buay koon and buay pang-
sai.
That night she only can wave bye bye and then
she go back to the
kitchen and cook Maggi mee.
Her neighbour came over and ask, "Eh, an-zhua lu
boh kee party?"
So Singaalella kong, "I-wan, lau-bu kong buay-sai,
so boh pian."
She never expect but the neighbour say,
"Aiyah, kee lah, I give you money."
So singalella brush teef and zhang-zhui, chen-kor,
after that look
very different.
She quickly run to opposite of the beh-chia-lor,
already 11
o'clock.
At the party, Ah Ming also quite sian because the
char bor all boh
sui one.
Dance floor even got one ah pek dancing.
Just as Ah Ming told himself, "Aiyah see-pay zhia-
lat", Singalella
came in.
Ah Ming straight away lau nuar.
"Wah-lau eh, see-pay heng ah, chee kor buay
pai."
Ah Ming say to Singalella, "eh, sui eh, wah ai kah
lee zho flen!"
Singalella say ok but Ah Ming like octopus, touch
here touch there.
But then just it was 12 o'clock, one ah pek die on
the dance floor.
He become ghost and tell Singalella all the good
4D number.
So after that Singalella quickly go and buy 4D, and
then tiok
tau-pio, zhit-pak ban.
So she pay back the kay-piak eh lau-kay-poh and
then kah kee cho
sen-lee.
Simi kuan eh sen-lee wah mana eh zhai.
Section B: Grades - Gauge Your command of
Hokkien....
A1. Can understand the story and pronounce
Hokkien correctly.
Hokkien eh sai, bo beh zao.
A2. Can understand half story and/or cannot
pronounce Hokkien
properly.
zhia lat
E8. Don't understand story and/or catch no
ball.
leow leow, mai ka lang kong you is Hokkien
Singabolean
F9. Don't understand rating.
kee see lah, wah mana eh zhai lee kong simi?
..// LuCiFiEd \\..
Sunday, May 07, 2006
~ 5:23 AM ~
If there really is a heaven and hell, wad is considered as a sinful thing to do? wad is it dat ppl done that will land them in hell? i am kinda curious to noe... dun ask mi why juz curious... haha
Sins, are they considered as something that goes against one's moral values? or is juz define by ppl's thinking?If theres a degree on such topics, i will gladly go learn. Is someone able to teach mi?
..// LuCiFiEd \\..
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
~ 11:32 PM ~
Real Facts in Life...
more and more people are getting more and more realistic no need to mention more and more materialistic as well, no offense but mostly refering to the ladies. in order for 2 person's relationship to work,
both muz first consider if they can imagine a future with each other...
imagine whether it will still be the same feeling after 5 yrs down e road and the person slping beside u is "him" or "her"...
following will be considering if ur partner (mostly refering to gers, no offense again. ^-^ ) is able to provide u with the living and the things u will ever wan in life.
does ur partner earn enough? will he or she be sacked from their jobs? will we have enuff savings even if till the time when there r kids in the family?
All these are some typical questions ppl will think about before getting in to a serious relationship. Dun u think when we were younger, such things wun a bother to us? The only thing that matter to us back den will be...
This ger chio enuff?
That guy cute or yan dao enuff bo?
Now, as we get older, we start to realised the importance of saving. Everything in life needs money, if u have no money...how the hell are u goin to marry ur love one? how r u goin to buy a house for living? and if so...lets not tok bout cars if house is already a problem.
I starting to understand why gers in Singapore are so persistent about the 5"C"s now... is not cuz they want it to be like that but more of they hav no choice not to be like that. Its is the only thing to ensure their's or their kid's future survival... Life's Cruel? ahhh get used to it...it has always been. hahahahaha
For myself, did "u" and i encountered one of the problems i mentioned above? Not being able to see a future together with mi? well... dats a pity, i nv blame anyone, not u, not fate and of cuz not myself, cuz i believe strongly dat i did wad i could to try and fight u back. But evenutally i failed. So guess i still will have to face this cruel and cold world alone... Living to pass day by day is now my only target and hope in life... Life suxs... i HATE it so much... I DETEST LIFE, MYSELF and of cuz not forgetting... "YOU"...
Haha wondering who "you" is?
Pls stay tune to next weeks epi of....
arghz crapz...dun worry...it might be u... it might not be as well... hahaha
..// LuCiFieD \\..
thanks to my darling Sharon and Da Jie dat i almost died last night. =p
