Been kinda bz this couple of days, didnt really hav the mood to write something as well,
hhmm... lets see, lets start from yesterday ba, went to have Dim Sum lunch with da jie's family. Its her mum's birthday, and i had the honour to tag along for the meal LOLX. The food was good i muz say, cheap too, due to some reasons... haha anyway went shopping with them after which, see da jie bought many things haha was like her birthday sia, juz keep buying and buying... haha but i noe she juz wanna pamper herself for the hard week she has been through. Hey jie, u deserve it...really, though there r times i might ask u not to buy, its all cuz i find it is either not worth it or simply juz not nice. had alot of fun walking ard with them in the super market, was as if singapore was goin in to war sia, can u imagine we had 2 trolleys wor.... haha after that we headed back to da jie's home to unload the stuff and den headed to parkway to continue the shopping spree. da jie bought some more stuff over at the isetan in parkway parade. haha the thing is that i didnt grew sian of seeing her shop, pls la... i am well trained one ok? seeing her try those clothes and giv comments was fun... haha anyway played pool after all the shopping was done cuz xian wanted to play. think he will never wanna play pool with mi anymore ba?? hahahaha
After which the night ended simply with mi meeting up with lao da for our usual pool night.

As for today, it was Andy's birthday, so met up with Ying, Zhihui, Haide at Marine Parade and then took Yong Hoe's car over to the chalet for the celebration. Met alvan, zhihong they all there as well, had alot of crappy jokes making us laugh till stomach cramp ar. Left with Ying not long after the cake cutting, she was rushing to Double-O and i gotta rush down to meet Lao Da to play pool AGAIN tonight. So the night ended with mi playing pool and having supper with lao da.

This following part is for my Da Jie,
Hey ger, juz read ur blog, understand wad u r goin through, aso noe that its kinda tough for u especially at times when u r sick. It feels terrible to noe that u r alone when u need someone by ur side. i understand how it feels...Anyway is not that i dun wanna say much, but cuz i dun think i am in any position to say anything. i noe u and "him" had lots and lots of fond memories, letting it go is hard, forgetting is even harder. i'm happy enuff to see that at least my company can help u the least bit. think thats the only thing i can do for u le...hey trust mi i really love u alot as a sister, i dun wanna see u get hurt or wad so ever, i hope i can be there for u at times when u need someone. Stay strong, be strong. I always believe that time heals all wounds, though it might leave a scar but at least it wun hurt as much as when the injury was inflicted on u. Call mi if theres anything u need k? Dun think ur this god brother bochup u one wor...

Next, will be my own stuff, after reading da jie's blog made mi think bout many many stuff. Stuff related to "her"... sometimes i think to myself, wun it be a good thing if i were to hav a chance to take care of u when u r sick... well is juz a "think" so therefore means that it didnt happen before. Did think bout "you" recently...really trying hard to walk out of the dead end i am in now currently... slowly, but i do see progress.

..// LuCiFiEd\\ ..

Lets see... juz got home from Esthi, a new place dat i gone today. Live band was superb. Only one bad thing, the sound system was too stomp le... canot take it sia, drank till now feeling abit drunk. normally wun like that one leh, dunno why today so easy feel giddy le, maybe is cuz i juz recover from the stupid weather sickness ba. Anyway took a pic with da jie there, will be updated later. Today was quite a boring day anyway, been rotting at home the whole morning and afternoon. Only went out in the night, went to meet da jie, kiat and iris to have our dinner at Bedok 85, after which went down to esthi to continue our night le. Nothing much to update anyway, so think i shall juz stop here ba, need to go sleep liao, tml need to wake up early to go eat dim sum with da jie and her mum. haha so shall sign off here, take care peepz. CheeRzzz

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Hey ppl, i'm bck from taiwan le, FINALLY.
Lets see... all i did during this trip was walking around looking at rocks, moutains, caves and seas. Was kinda boring but evenutally the group of ppl got more happenin towards the end, so things wun that bad. Tried many special food there, shopping and did many funny stuff there as well like playing pool.
Playing pool is quite normal for mi, but got ger to accompany u to play is rather new to many ppl ba? haha well i finally got the chance to experience it le. She was called "小玲". Her skills were rather good for someone who only played 4-5 months. compared to her i felt so useless cuz i hav been playing pool for bout 5 yrs le, yet i find that winning her is something difficult. Her stunts, her placing and her accuracy were things that surprised mi. Had quite a good learning exp, took a photo with her as well to let mi remb bout my first opponent in Taiwan.


















She not exactly a chio bu, but she was very cute and nice. Nice to the extend, let mi win few racks, felt so useless. so i promised myself that i will come back and start training back my old skills.























Didnt do much over there as well, mostly was juz sight seeing lor and shopping. Shopping at Xi-Men-Ding was quite fun too took a pic with the cute sales ger while shopping for Miao's present haha i know i shouldnt be doin that haha but...heck la...she cute. LOLX

Well think theres nothin much else to show ba, unless u guys wanna see wad i ate and photos with my parents haha. so think i shall end here ba. Take care peepz.


..// LuCiFiEd\\..

Hi peepz, i'm now currently logging in from an internet cafe in Gao Xiong
now lets tok bit bout the tour i am currently in now, few words to describe it only. "FUCK UP"
nothing much to do one sia, except everyday go for those stupid cb culture tour. KNN waste my time sia.
But thank god our singapore tour guide is a very nice person, brought us ard to shop and buy things at night.
i believe all of us hav the misconception that Taiwan has good food ba...
Let mi tell u all something u r wrong...so freaking wrong.
been here for a couple of days le had nothing but shitty food. but there are aso some that r NOT so bad one will post some of the pics and update on more stuff when i get back HOME...
I MISS HOME...
I MISS MEI...
I MISS DA JIE...
I MISS BUBBLES...
I MISS YING...

home:
i miss my bed, my comp, val, cancan and my brother...

mei:
i miss seeing u hearing u tok cock with mi. so sian now here without anyone of u...i'm worried bout "daddy" as well...will go bck and see him as soon as i get bck home.

da jie:
da jie i miss ur crappy rubbish...i miss ur shouting...i miss goin to chiong with u...anyway i noe u r goin through some hard times due to WGS...but bear with it... if i remb correctly it ends tml right? hang on...take care will come home to hear u complaint soon.

bubbles:
my dear bubbles, i noe u r having ur exams now...i wish u all the best for everything, i cant be there to support u, i apologise...but mentally i will still be there for u...good luck and all the best...i hope to hear good news when i get bck.

ying:
hey ger i miss having lunch with u at maxwell...remb wad i told u before i left...i really feel it now already leh, even though is juz a week. i really cant imagine when i go into NS...well will catch up with u soon...i really miss u too =p

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Oh my, oh my, feeling abit high now...haha juz got back home from Devils Bar, tonight was the birthday of our dearest "姥姥" so went with da jie to celebrate with her. Before that went down to Chua Chu Kang to celebrate da jie's little niece's birthday. had quite a heavy yet late dinner. took LRT for the god damn 1st time as well tonight... i sound like a mountain turtle, but thats the truth. haha after which we headed down to Devils, starting that time felt kinda out of place, cuz i am the YOUNGEST there lolx.
Later part was better after da jie's fren "huili" came, joined them at their table which had one bottle of Chivas. well da jie intro-ed mi to Huili as her god brother, and huili was da jie's "mummy", so as her god brother, i was forced to call her Mummy as well... haha for no reason tonight i suddenly got a mummy haha. Her starting sentence to me was asking mi to drink half cup of my Chivas-Green tea. haha she is a very steady ger, and one thing is for sure... she is a GOD DAMN FREAKING good dancer... i heard that Devils really got no one that can win her. She is juz fantastic on the bar top with the pole. This i gotta admit, SHE IS GOOD!!!!
Left the place bout 3 plus, met "mummy" and "daddy" 's car outside, so they were kind enuff to send us back. OMG "daddy" & "mummy" tot i was 25 -26 yrs old sia, do i really look so old?
They were aso asking if i am really juz her "god-brother" or her suitor, haha WTH haha "
Too bad wasnt prepared to take photos. Anyway gotta thank da jie and her mummy & her bf who were kind enuff to sent us. so i'm here typing... well kinda tired le so think i will stop here ba,,, = Night Night peppz.

..// LuCiFied \\..

Below are the photos at MuSiC UnDeR-GrOunD as promised ^^V

Juz got home from Music Underground, yes the 2nd time i been there le, my god that place is so "techno" sometimes really cant stand it, too "stum stum" sia.
Anyway, lets start blogging bout my day, was supposed to meet at 8pm one, cuz da jie got work. but was changed to 9pm due to some things which happened in the restaurant. Left OPH with da jie at 9pm, went down to Mid Point food court to meet up with Veron to have dinner. Ying was supposed to meet us at 9pm as well, but SOMEBODY fell aslp at home...haha end up meeting us late. Saw Kelvin Tan, my Shi-Gong, juz out side the food court, we talked abit of cock and den Ying came. Went into MU at bout 10-11 plus, saw da jie's fren Vincent, Marvin(dunno how to spell la), and his gf, who's name if i nv remb wrongly shld be call Jia-Ling.
Before we met, i heard bout her already, heard that she looked like Ayumi, so Ying and i were quite eager to see her real person, ended up kinda disappointed, she is pretty i dun deny, but far from Ayumi ba... no offense... haha
Well, lets continue, the night was full of Techno music, so it was kinda boring for Veron, Ying and i, due to boredom it led to mi goin to play pool and mega touch. R&B started playing at bout 1am, thats when u see life in the crowd, haha
The table beside ours got into some conflict which leaded to a quarrel and we "think" we heard them mentioning their gang names. OMG i pulled Ying back cuz i was afraid they might hit her, was prepared to shelter her if there really was a fight. The smaller sized guy got pulled out in the end, and i think it ended out with him juz being SLAPPED, and so the issue ended. Kinda childish i find... haix... hhmm dat sounds like something i will do when i was back in 15 or 16. Anyway that table beside us were SO SO SO beng sia, shouted gang cheers with the music. Gang cheers, how long has it been since i last heard it sia? OMG... Old Skool Ah Bengs leh haha
((("Yo ah yo, yo ah yo, mai yo jiu mai yo, ai yo jiu ga ga yo... ")))
Omg thats juz so OLD SKOOL... anyway drank quite little tonight so there wasnt any vomit incident, plus i am super sober enuff to sit infront of my comp typing all such rubbish haha
Sent Ying home on cab before i got home myself, Veron called and jio mi tml MORNING go cycling sia, wth, think sure not enuff slp one lor... still wan mi to wake her up at 9am, wonder if it is possible bo? haha anyway photos of our MU trip will be uploaded soon, as soon as da jie comes over to my place... haha so therefore think i will sign off here and go look for 周公 to go play chess liao. Take Care Peepz...

Enough of chiong-ing le, now for personal stuff, everytime seeing u in this state, it hurts mi deep down, seeing the change in u yet there's nothing i can do as well, but only let u be the way u wanna be. Was told to 看开点... so no choice ba LPPL...LL SUCK THUMB lor...haix... hope things will change soon.

This will be dedicated to my best brother Justin, hey bro, juz had a little chat with u on msn, sorry bout my msn lagginess, really dunno why i cant get the reply, so so fucked up sia, anywayz hope things r really alright for u, though i dun really noe wads bothering u, but u shld noe when u need someone, u can juz msg or call mi. Wad are bros for man ? Will always be here when u need someone. Read ur blog, read that post too, felt so funny come to think of it, life is juz purely sucky la think both u and i noe that by now. But dun worry, no matter wad, we hav each other to guai lan till the end k brother ? HAHA
..// LuCiFiYiNg \\..

Hhmm... lets see, how shld i start?
K, juz got home from town area, met up with Da jie and Veron for dinner today, before that we went to Carefour to do some shopping. Cuz easter is coming, so Veron gotta help to buy Chocolates for her company. Bought hell alot of things, before we went to the restaurant at Istana Park for our dinner. The place is damn nice, the only bad thing u guys can expect might be juz the service ba, its not bad, but juz very very slow...
Chit-Chated during dinner, and we came across the topic of "Abortion"... dun ask mi why... haha
Anyway i wonder wad r ur views bout this, wads ur meaning of "Life"?
They were telling mi stories bout their fren, which included a part that consisted of the topic "abortion"... i juz dunno why i am kinda disturbed by the idea of hearing ppl goin through abortion.
Veron said something that made sense too, if u do not have the income to maintain a family and a kid, giving birth to the kid, wun it result in being a "Tragedy"?
I totally understand wad she was trying to tell mi... but my concept was that, if say such things really happened, no matter wad both parties shld bear the responsibility of bringing the child safely to this "WONDERFUL" world. by goin through abortion, u r killing a life, it has not much difference with murder. No matter how old the being is, it is still a living being. Do u really hav the right to deny his or her chance to come see the world?
To me, it is aso a very sinful thing, and i believe karma will really fall upon the both parties if any harsh or rush decisions are made. Juz imagine if there is really a heaven and hell after we die, do u think by doin such a thing u will go heaven? do u dare to say that u hav done nothing wrong?
I find that sometimes my thinking juz doesnt click with the modern world, many things happening in modern society, to me, i find that is very sinful or rather, a MISTAKE. i'm not saying that i am a "saint". i have done things wrong myself as well, i wun deny bout it. think i am juz more suitable to live in the oldern ages ba...
What are ur point of view bout "Abortion"??
Really hope to see diff prospective in life... pls enlighten mi.... ANYONE??


... // LuCiFiEd \\ ...

Yes, is 6 plus AM in the early morning and i juz got home. Had a busy day today, busy but yet fun haha. Well lets start from this morning, hhmm i was slping so nothing much. Haha Afternoon, went to Tan Tock Seng to visit "daddy", he seems alot better den a week ago, thank god for that. He is able to recognise ppl already, ppl like miao and "mummy". But he said he noes who am i, guess wad he said?
"ya i remember, he is the one who sells fruits one mah."
Wah kaoz, blurzzz haha anyway he is able to response and tok to us, so we r more relief. There is this superb senior staff nurse who is in charge of his case, she will update us bout his conditions EVERYTIME when we first got to the ward. Best Senior Nurse i seen so far, the other one will be this nurse by the name of "Shirley Tan". She is a nurse there who took care of "daddy" as well, kinda cute too. =p
Anyway she is the prettiest i can find in the ward, well u noe wad they say,
"When there is no fish, prawns will do."
LOLX =p
We even saw this patient who was quite young juz laying opp "daddy", trying to "kao" her, wah liew so low class sia, trying to jio gers even when he is laying in the damn hospital.
After that went to Tiong Bahru to meet Ying for our frequent "KOPI SESSION". Talked to her bout many things including things which happened juz days ago, got many conclusions and new point of views in the ger's prospective. Starting to understand wad went wrong, well maybe wad is meant to be will always be, wad is never meant to be will NEVER be. Thanks, felt alot better after toking to u, even though the things u told mi were kinda cruel, but yet realistic.
As it was a Friday night, so Lao Da dropped mi a sms to ask bout pool session tonight, went down together with Ying to meet her "Shi Gong", sorry auntie, i know u were tired, but u still chose to keep mi company, thankful to hav a great pal like u. LuV u LOTSSSS haha
Tonight's game was good for all three of us, played better than usual dunno for wad reasons aso. But manage to win Lao Da by clearing him on the 2nd cue, i was stunned and shocked when i finished the game. Played quite well, quite impressed with myself, LOLX...
For Ying, will be a bit more sad la, she kinda break clear by her own "shi gong". Sad Ar? =p
Went for supper after our pool session, at Geylang as usual, love the food there. After which went to see see look look, jialan jialan ard the place and den headed home to bathe and download movies. Haha anyway take care peepz =)

..// LuCiFyInG \\..

Because Of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break, the way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far

(chorus)
Because of you I never strayed too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust, not only me,
but everyone around me, Because of you, I am afraid

I lose my way, and its not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry, because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can�t possibly break, when it wasn�t even whole to start with

(chorus)

I watched you die, I heard you cry, every night in your sleep.
I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me.
You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain.
And now I cry in the middle of the night, doin the same damn thing

(chorus)
Because of you I never strayed too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you I'm ashamed of my life, because its empty
Because of you, I am afraid

Because of you...
Because of you...


*** Starting to understand wad mei means by no one understands how fucked up life can be... now i TOTALLY agree... it suxs to the extend whereby i really dun see anyone who understands wad pain and suffering i'm goin through now... KILL ME TOO BA ... if thats wad god wans ***


...// LuCiFiEd \\...

A boring day...
Da jie was supposed to come over to study so i didnt go over for visiting. but she went home to take a "NAP" after her driving, which was like 10 plus when she got home, guess wad time i manage to find her? 4.00PM...OMG she havent revised for her paper lor, feel like burning her hair with a lighter sia. haha
Anyway recently things aint exactly goin the way i planned or rather i hope it to be.
But dun worry i will survive, actually i kinda expected the outcome to be so, juz hoping i was wrong.but everything did come true. i dun need ppl to tell mi how to lead my life, so dun worry i wun collapse and die. Juz finished watching "Coyote Ugly"... heard the song "I Will Survive"... told myself that i muz survive too... no matter wad...
So thanks to the ppl who r concern, but i will pass this stage ALONE...dun need to teach mi wad to do, i have my own ways to survive, be it good or bad...

...// LuCiFieD \\...

缘份 缘份，


人生当中会遇到各种各样的人，


两个陌生的人能相识是种缘，


这两人能否在一起就得看他俩是否有这个福份了。


相识是缘，


相聚是份，


能白头偕老才算是种缘份。。。


只可惜我和你可能真的是有缘无份吧

Slept kinda late last night, but surprisly woke up quite early today. when i opened my eyes the 1st thing i saw was the early morning sun shine which i havent seen in ages, well at least not that i notice la. Anyway after last night, seems like all effort wasnt enough, all love were shattered. Not enough in the sense that i cant change the way she think.
perhaps i am juz not the key to her lock hidden deep in the heart.
I tried my best to get her bck, i really did.
but why muz things end up like this?
IS THIS WAD THEY CALL KARMA?????
if it is so, i think i deserve it den, i am a bad person, i juz deserve to burn and die in hell
I told myself to take things easy, if it is mine it will be. but is really not that easy to do that. no matter when, no matter wad somehow or other, u r always in my mind. i dunno why u made such a deep impact in my life? all i noe is by leaving u took part of mi away too, i really do need u. but seems like on ur side u dun really someone to be there for u. i believe words can no longer change the way u think, so i am really at a lost now. i dun deny that i'm sad now, i dun deny that tears r rolling down while i am typing this. Mum keep asking what happened? cuz i seem to be in a bad mood, didnt tell her anything, find it pointless to tell anyone, is there anyone out there who understands how i feel?

...// LuCiFieD \\...

been sometime since i last posted something.
following r some updates...
- things r turning better le, hope will get well and recover soon.
- congrats to HanHan for getting her long waited driving license, hope i can get mine soon aso =)
- received a love letter from the Government, CMPB, YES!!! is my dear enlistment letter... for ppl who dunno yet i will be goin in to Tekong soon... exactly when i wun post, so dun bother asking, when u notice that i not online for a long period of time liao den i think that will be it.
- been thinking alot about her lately, hope for things to work, a 2nd chance perhaps.


...// LuCiFiEd \\...

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true.
LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident...

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver
medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

Pray that "Daddy" will get well soon...
I really hope for him to be like before...
Will be praying hard for him...
Stay Strong!!!