Yesterday was quite a sad day, went to see my best brother off back to Australia. After he leaves in future there wun be a place for us to gather on sat nights to play mahjong le, no one to pei wo go eat "fei fei" le. As tradition and custom, we kicked him into the customs again this time, so song sia so long nv do that liao haha.
Anyway after seeing the bstard off we headed to Stacie's house to play mahjong. was thinking of many things, causing mi to even pay for everyone's game. Han already 九张落地 liao...包索子liao yet i blur blur still go hit out 六索without thinking...haha guess i am old le ba...mind cannot think of too many things at one time le. Lucky thing still got win some back and cover losses, end up lose 2.50 only haha quite happy liao to me consider big win le.
Anyway meeting mei,lian,shan,justin,ml and maybe gek to go watch Rumour Has It like soon...hope it is a good show. Feel so bored...so troubled as well...many things duno shld say out or not still...troubled...haix...who will understand??

::// LuCiFieD

Was with my outside buddies yesterday, Alex,Aloy,Aaron,Stacie, and Hanhan. we met at marina bay mrt at 7pm, took a shuttle bus from "Zheng Fai", the place was so freaking crowded lor, the rest of the stalls were like hitting flies. Really ate alot yesterday, dunno whether is it the food not clean or juz i was about to fall sick. After steamboat, went over to Aloy's place to play mahjong, shared with Stacie as there were too many ppl. Starting wasnt very good, but our luck slowly came behind...haha won abit of money. Took bus back home and got myself a SME from Mac as breakfast. Slpt all the way till this afternoon before i was willingly to get my freaking butt up, was'nt feeling anything till after lunch, i aso dunno wad happen, kinda felt throat abit itchy, den suddenly felt so cold and feverish, body felt weak too...so after watched finish the chinese show at 4.30pm i went to bed again. Msg bubbles and told her bout my situation now, she told mi to go buy medicine or see a doctor, too bad there wasnt anyone at home at that present moment. Felt so lonely, so alone...how i wish there was someone there to take care of mi...juz like i would if "u" fell sick...Well think maybe the fever has fried my brains, i am kinda tokin in a very strange manner which i find weird as well...sometimes having time alone is aso not a bad thing, the least i can think bout wad things or who do i really desire in life. Since i cant find anyone to keep mi company guess i will only have to find a corner in my house and start drawing circles ba...


**//LuCiFieD

The rain, just never seems to bring
the joy, I feel the same
everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left the mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark
Though I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in
* If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
I'd never let you go *

The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything on that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance
Though I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in YEAH

Repeat *

Repeat *

Haha for most of us, Poly life is like kinda over le, finish studyin, finished exams, now only waiting for another stage of my life **National Service**, not scared, but juz sian, cuz i dun the feeling of being caged in a place for like a week. that suxs.
Its only the 2nd day after my exams. i am feeling the extreme boredom le, i finally understand how bubbles felt when she had her break and we had our exams **poor ger**
Well anywayz, bubbles dropped by yesterday to play Puzzle Fighter. Kinda lucky didnt get trash by her, the score was quite even out. but she still owes mi bout 30 plus gems LOLX.
We played like few hrs of Puzzle Fighter till the extend our fingers got really really NUMB.
Met the rest of the gang at Marine Parade, as some of them wanna play pool. Haha i bought a box of D24 durians for meimei and asked her to eat inside Classic Pool, haha after which i think some ppl were hunting to find the person who was eating, but my dearest sis, she ate the durians with GOD SPEED sia.
After pool session, all the stomachs were rioting within le, so we headed to hawker center to hav our very very late dinner. We had it like at 9 plus lor. Haha had Yong Tao Fu with mei.
After which had some after-dinner activity and den headed home. reached home bout 12 plus ba...chatted online and rotted till bout 4 in the morning den go orh orh...
Juz rem my Mei having her "JABA" paper today, hey mei good luck wor, da ge will be here praying for u....**but i dunno pray to which god leh??** haha anyway u noe wad i mean.
=p

``LuCiFiEd--

I nv used to understand wad the phrase mean till recently, pictures really can help to tell many stories or recall many memoris be it fond or sad ones. I used to hate taking photos for those who noe mi long enuff, but somehow nowadays i kinda enjoy taking photos, mb is cuz of the ppl ard mi haha where there are some photo taking maniacs. Was looking at the pic i posted below yesterday, kinda think of many many things suddenly, the road we went through, the things we done, words we said, and even her different stages of evolution for her HAIR haha. well it used to be long and vv nice one wor *though now aso very nice hor =p*
Thanks for appearing in my life...i am really thankful to have a gd fren like u, even if we walk seperate paths, i'll still be always there for u, juz a phone call...a phone call thats all =)
Well like wad i said in the sms, SnOwY is always here...this i promise u

``LuciFyInG--

Well everything is over liao from today onwards, be it exams, sch and things like studying with Ying...i gotta miss every little bit of all such memories...Studying with u is cool ger~u rox~

Well kinda felt bored today...nothing much has been happenning maybe is cuz due to exams week ba
Everyone is busy studying, or rotting i shld say. Many ppl i noe dun really hav the mood to study anyway
Lucky i still got YingYing to study with me, with this good fren ard, she will attempt to slap me if i am not studying and starts to day dream...Thanks ger~!!! All the best for ur paper =)
Anyway was supposed to go meet "Bubbles" this morning haha but over slept sorry wor...
Well i tried to make it up by joining u for breakfast still wor =)
Hope u really not angry wor haha but i think u wun one la...u will juz get bck on mi by bullying mi everyday
*standard procedure* sad ar...
Haha anywayz tml is my last paper liao hopefully it will be the last for the rest of my TP life...which is like till end of this week? LOLX
Wireless...i kinda hate this subject, too many things i dun really understand...yet no one to teach, the rest are all taking Networking elective so therefore no one is there to explain to mi like before le...
Anyway found the words below kinda meaniful therefore i posted it as well...Enjoy ur holidays ppl, for gers hope u all find a job soon, for guys...depends some of u hope the CMPB letter to come earlier some later... up to u all man...juz wish u guys all the best as well...
As for those applied for Uni one may all ur applications be a success,esp my mei, really hope she can continue her studies...mei u can one =) Jia You Wor~!!!

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when the stars don't shine
when the birds don't fly
when the flowers cry
and when the rain runs dry

when the violet's red
and when the rose turn blue
baby i'll still be inlove with you...
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the way you make me feel so adored
wish i can bring you candles when you feel lonely
dream that you were my wife-to-be
in 365 all i ask is one
name it after me
lalalala
wish you'd write my name on your favourite palm tree
look in my eyes,love is all you can see
night and day i dream that things are the way before will you love me more
where,when and why did you make me cry
loneliness has become another part of life
tears running strong and angels have gone
don't how to carry on
baby i need you now
i need your arms to hold me tight tonight
please turn the lights down low
and feel my body glow whisper and flow
baby i need you now
i need your strength to hold me down tonight
the world is outof sight
cause you are all that i've been searching for
the way you make me feel adored

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Having my exams this coming week on mon and wed. on mon i have 2 papers lor,so sian sia early morning is innk and den in the afternoon is broadband. both of these subjects are killer subjects which requires lots and lots of brain cell. so since the paper is on mon i shld be studying like shit now right? but i'm not. i really have no mood at all to read the book,even if i do so,it will be forgotten in like 5 secs.
Anyway today is a sat, was actually spending my day mugging in books, but one msg came, someone asked mi out for dinner, i was so surprised when i saw the msg was from who. well since i dun have dinner at home i replied "ok". dunno is it juz fate or maybe i'm stupid looking,easy to bluff lor. till 11 plus there wasnt any reply at all still, so i waited and waited like some dumb dumb. at bout 11.30 a msg came,
("something happened, even if meet liao the timing wun be good.")
after seeing the msg i felt so....ermx dunno how to describe la, but the feeling aint good. i didnt hav dinner juz cuz i tot we were goin to meet. in the end things ended this way. wth man. felt kinda stupid haix....this aeroplane was kinda big for mi, cant really say i am angry, but i juz lost all mood to study liao. so therefore i am typing all these now. anyway those having exams, good luck for all of u...!!!

Fate and life r actually equally cruel. No matter how much u do or try u cant change the way things r and how ppl think,there r ppl ard u which u might show extra care and concern for. Be it lovers or frens, treasure them, for all u noe we might not live to see tml's sun rise. Dun do things that will hurt them, dun say things that will break their heart. Silence doesnt always mean consent, sometimes it aso means disappointed or disheartened, till the extend words can explain anything anymore. Its seldom that i post 2 entries in one night but somehow juz feel like saying everything out.
There is someone whom i know...whom i care...whom i treasure...who i really loved...is goin through a very bad phase in life, problems r piling up on her shoulders, i really wish to help her lighten it...really!!! But maybe things r not the same as before...many things r chose to be kept inside...Maybe wad others say is right, people do change as time goes by, but one thing is for sure my love and concern for her will nv fade...i really hope u can get on with life...
climb up from where u fall...
stay strong as u once were...
I really missed the days whereby we can tok our hearts out without caring bout how and wad others think...No matter any major or minor things which happen in my life, everytime i need adivses, u r the first one i will think of. Though i noe it might not be the same for u...but i juz hope for u to noe i am willing to help, listen or suggest anything regarding the problems u hav, juz like before.
In my heart, there is always a very important corner for u...u changed many things bout mi...be it my temper...be it my habits...be it the way i tok sometimes...i nv regret noeing u...in fact noeing u might be the best thing that ever happened to me. Therefore i really wish u all the best in life...hope u can learn to see things in a diff way and stay happy always...i'm always there for u...i promise!!

Nowadays hav been discussing bout this particular problem with one of my fren...haha i think that person shld noe who he is...lol...everytime wanna giv mi flower one...make a guess? LOLX
Anyway was tokin to him bout it...his suggestion was to say it out, the only result was that is either he will pass mi a 玫瑰花 or a 菊花 lor...but hav been thinking bout it recently aso anyway before the msg came...i really dunno how we will be like till now...would it be a sweet or sour phase that we r goin through? God noes...but one thing is for sure...it sure makes mi think alot about the past...i know i did somethings wrong as well in the past...but i really changed,well i doubt u noe it anyway...not till if a 2nd chance comes along...is it really impossible anymore?
Thanks for the care and concern u showed mi these period of time...i'm really grateful...i juz wan u to noe i do care alot bout u as well...but is juz that i cant show it out too obvious...i'm afraid u might juz avoid mi from den on...how i wish we could sit down and tok bout it...but is juz that u nv seem to hav the time...u r always surrounded with problems juz like mi...always surrounded by them...isit really not possible to spare a tot for mi...giv mi a chance to tok it out?
I really wonder...i noe is stupid...but i juz dunno why i am like this again...if u so happen to see this post...*though i think the hopes r not high*...think bout it...i really hope to take care of u from now on till when the world comes till an end...

教我怎么能不难过劝我灭了心中的火
我还能够怎么说怎么说都是错
你对我说离开就会解脱
试着自己去生活试着找寻自我
别再为爱蹉跎
只是爱要怎么说出口
我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手指间传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁多少愁
教我怎么能不难过你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能够怎么做怎么做都是错
如果要我把心向你解剖
只要改变这结果
我会说我愿意做
我受够了寂寞

What a sunny afternoon...so freaking hot....woke up early to go temple...sian1/2...after drinking so much last night...think that was the most i drank recently lor...haha went to visit this new place call "B1" with da jie, miao juan a.k.a ah mei, lian and fu ming liang haha played pool and dices "bluff" haha long time nv play liao kinda forgot how to play liao...but my xiao mei like damn zai at the game lor wahaha kinda bluffed by her many times aso LOLX...anyway take this chance to thank da jie for the drinks last night...everything was so cool haha the place had live band as well though mostly cantonese songs but was good...lucky ming liang and lian can enter last night lor arbor damn sian liao...yes!! if only the 2 of them got checked means mi and miao didnt...haha i was under age lor!!! WHY NO ONE CHECK MI!!!!??? do i really look so old...LOLX
After drinking session we walked ard in orchard to clear our heads...end up at far east the 7-11 to eat supper den sent miao and lian back to miao's place...den drop ming liang at paya lebar there and headed straight home to koon liao...was kinda surprised i didnt vomit last night anyway...normally sure will vomit one leh but think can slowly pick up my drinking skills again liao...IF da jie still has the mood to drink on...too bad didnt have a camera to take pics last night so no pics to show u guys the place...if any one is interested den next time we can all go together lor...one bottle of martell is bout $168 if i remb correctly...haha but all will hav to wait for 2 weeks more...wait till i finish my exams...meanwhile take care ppl... =)

Well, been sometimes since i updated my blog...so tot of leaving some tots and things that hav been happening nowadays...firstly was to mention bout our Altivo trip with the IFC-CU ppl...though not all but most...haha had lots of fun there except that too quiet le i find...since go drinking muz make more noise ma...den some drink till sleepy sleepy de haha *not goin to mention names*
Took some pics there but dunno why cant upload leh the past few days...sibei sian, maybe is user problem ba...haha den now can liao haha

Next, will be bout my dearest da jie who has encounter problems in life...been trying to spend time with her as much as possible...hope can be able to take care of her...she is important to mi...though i noe wad she is goin through but i dunno how it feels...i juz noe it hurts alot...cuz i went through it as well...but mine wasnt as deadly as her's...she has been feeling rather down lately but she tends to show us her strong side in order for us not to worry...da jie, i noe is hard but i hope u will survive through this test...stay strong and stay happy always...i hope to see the da jie i noe soon...no matter how hard this journey might be...i will always and always be there for u no matter wad...whenever life turns sour i will be there to help u sweeten it this i promise u....Take Good Care of urself.... =p

As u all can see...below are some pics taken at Altivo...Had fun people...hope to go with u guys again...U all r really a good bunch of frens...U Guys ROXS man...