Darkness will fall & blood will flow...

2008-09-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

Oh my Oh my...been ages since i came back here to put my tots in words...
many things have happened during this period of time... and i really mean many...
i dunno if i still remb all of it...but mainly the more important ones i guess.

Well first on the list. the most important of all...i lost a real gd fren recently.
wondering wad happened? i told her my real feelings after noeing her for 5 yrs. Things just couldnt work out. All these while we had been just very close and gd frens, guess it was a shock to her when i told her everything. Starting was still alright, when we both agree to give each other some time and try it out see how it goes, but as time goes by, she became more sure dat we can only be and remain as frens. What she told mi was she felt sorry becuz she gave mi hope and den push mi all the way to hell *once again
Deep down in my heart, i nv blame her before. I understand that such things cant be forced. If it doesnt work out no matter wad u do, it still wun work out. So after all these issues, we said to be and remain as frens. I noe i shouldnt be expecting anything, but all these yrs...she has always been such an important person to me, someone who dares to poke me, someone who dares to kick mi in the face, someone who is there to listen to my rubbish when i am down, someone who is there to cheer mi up with her rubbish as well, someone who will always be the last to wish mi happy birthday....someone i loved.
This yr's birthday was kinda sad, cuz she didnt msg mi ( i dunno how to describe such feeling, but it sucks.) i was waiting the whole day...the next day...even the next next day...but it jus didnt come...i seriously hope to noe wad is goin through her mind right now...about us...is it impossible to even be frens? haha i really wonder....

This yr is one of the worst birthday i had...was actually goin to organize a bbq and celebrate tgt with da jie...but due to some personal reasons, we had to cancel it. So...the day came but everyone was busy with work, sch or frens...so i celebrated my birthday with this fren i only met recently...she was nice enough to celebrate with me...though i was sick

Da jie and man zai is finally getting married...or rather goin to ROM le...the date is set on the oct 16th...i really feel happy for her...but it jus came to me to sudden...i jus didnt see her for 1 week and after that she told mi they goin to ROM liao...trust me, my jaws almost hit the floor when i heard it. Man zai is still young...i really wonder if he is ready to have a family burden on his shoulder at the age of 23...but oh well, i mean if they think is alright, who am i to say no...god bless and hope they have a wonderful marriage.

Leaving TNT already...decided to go over to Jeffery side to help him with his dental implant business...went to see wad kind of business he is really in recently over at NUS...everything was new to me, alot of things to learn, abit dry though...but i will try my best to help him in his business...hopefully i wun screw up...all the best to myself i guess...haha

Well there isnt much updates left dat i can remb so i guess i will jus stop here first?
take care folks.

.. // LuCiFiEd \\ ..

2008-06-24T16:00:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time,

Arcangel in the sky,
May it cover every night,

Once upon a time,
The angel loved me so,
It’s a miracle in the snow, my heart won’t be cold

My dear, you are my angel,
Tell me what you know,
Something should be told

My dear, you are my angel,
Tell me where you go,
I will brace behind your love

2008-06-24T15:09:00.000+08:00

你怎么舍得我难过(国)
黄品源

对你的思念是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦何时才能出现
亲爱的你好想再见你一面
秋天的风一阵阵地吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候没有一句话就走
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过
对你的思念是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦何时才能出现
亲爱的你好想再见你一面
秋天的风一阵阵地吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候没有一句话就走
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候没有一句话就走
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过

2008-05-03T15:42:00.002+08:00

Saturday, May 03, 2008, Damn freaking hot afternoon

2 yrs coming up, i'm completing my NS soon already. Can't believe it, it seems like i was only enlisted couple months back only. But no matter wad, i am happy enuff that i get to escape all the driving and doing of shitty stuff which has nothing to do with me. 07 June will be the day i regain my freedom from the government "for awhile"...haix but it's better den nothing.

Lets see if i got other things to update,
Oh ya, Ying passed her driving yesterday, i went down to BBTC to surprise her, her test was at 4.30pm, so i reached BBTC bout 4.35pm, but i couldn't find the car she was driving in the circuit...so i gave up, just waited for her car to arrive back at the ending point. Finally bout 15 mins or so, i saw the car coming back. The tester had a very stern face, like no expressions kind,as for ying, she looked kinda stressed, she even pinned up her hair so dat it wun drop down and block her view while driving, haha dat's my girl...they went to Level 2 where the tester will evaluate the driver, and determine if u pass or fail. So i waited for another 5 mins or so, i went up to Level 2 to find her, i saw her once i got to Level 2, she was talking to another guy, i tot i wasn't the only one dat came down to surprise her, haha but after that i realized that he was one of the driver that went for TP that day. I was just looking at her from far, dunno whether to go up to her or not, so i just stood there and lean against the wall looking at her. It didn't took her long to realized that there was someone staring at her, so she looked up, to her surprised she saw me. She immediately ran towards me and started screaming and shouting at me, asking why i was here and she finally passed her driving test. As i told her last nite, it was a pity i didnt have my camera with me, if not i can take down the whole thing, it was quite a touching scene i find, very true and not like some fake ppl ... So i stayed with her till she got all her documents done, she suggested we go for dinner outside as mumy didnt cook, she insisted that dinner should be on her, so i just nod my head and say "ok la"... Went back to redhill market to buy takeaway dinner for her mummy first, den went up to her place and visited the mother, was kinda long since i last saw her liao...waited for ying to bath and changed we headed out for dinner in like 20-25 mins. She felt like eating Japanese Food for dinner, so i suggested the Waraku Restaurant, the one we saw the other time before goin to Manhatten FishMarket, the things are kinda affordable as well. When we got there, there was a long que, saw Edwin there as well, had a little chat with him and waited bout 15 mins for our table. Ying ordered a curry udon, and i ordered a curry don, both "regular" size, how big do u think is the REGULAR? i tot was damn small, becuz the only choice we had was "Mini" or "Regular" haha like wad the hell rite? Anyway we were quite shocked when the food arrived, the portion was very big, the side dishes were damn nice too, all the raw items were vry fresh. Enjoyed the dinner there, but shared the experience with da ge they all, they all said that the restaurant sucks leh...i wonder why? Guess it doesn't matter, as long as Ying and i like to dine there is good enough...haha so i wonder when next month we goin again? lol

.. // LuCiFiEd \\ ..

2008-04-23T17:55:00.003+08:00

Wed, April 23th 2008, 5.55pm, Cloudy & Windy

Finally the time is reaching near. What time is it? ORD time!!!
Just got my medical FFI form recently thanks to my 120 Sqn S1.
Life's still quite alright till now, everything is ok. Nothing really worth mentioning though.
Tonight i'm goin to have a Sqn dinner with the pilots and boss at this restaurant call "Crab Shack in the City"... weird name right? but guess we are goin to have crabs later ba lol...
its sort of a farewell dinner for me and some occasion regarding the Sqn... So they suggested to merge these 2 and celebrate together. Days at 120 Sqn have been a very very happy one actually, gotta know many ppl, learn many things and most importantly the art of survival in a political world. Must learn how to wear mask, if not u will die damn horribly...
some ppl worth mentioning that made all those happy memories for me,
- Maj LeeB (Rainman)
- Maj Chris Chew (Wally)
- Cpt Quek (Mugen)
- Lt Gabriel (Gabra)
- Encik Arthur Sng
- Encik James Tan
- Encik Tony
- Master Lau
- AOS Edwin, JingYi
- Cpt Chua (Money)
- Cpt Voodoo
- Cpt Virus

many many more...sorry if i missed out anyone...but u guys will always be missed...Luv u guys lots man!! 120sqn roxs...

.. // LuCiFieD \\ ..

2008-03-30T01:40:00.003+08:00

Sunday, 30th March 2008, 1:42am, Windy

2nd day since i got back to Singapore from my Bangkok trip. Many many things to update about.
Lets start...ready??

1st Day,
Before we even reach Thailand we made a big joke, lol, secret between the 3 of us, sworn never to leak out. Anyway reached Bangkok bout 8-9pm odd, took a cab which offered a flat rate of 700 baht, that was the 2nd offer, we had a 900 baht offer, its like madness man, such a big difference.
(Anyway, for ppl going to Bangkok, pls take note, when u come out from the arrival hall, is at Level B1. There the cabs offer fares at a flat rate. Which is more expensive. U can proceed to Level 3 which is the arrival hall, and take a cab, pls ask the uncle to count the fare BY METER, its ALOT cheaper TRUST ME!!! but the only troublesome thing is u gotta pay the toll fare of the high way la, which is like only 69 baht.)
When we arrived at the hotel, the 1st impression i had was, OMG, this hotel looks like one of those in Geylang's back alley. My first 4 words were, 猛鬼凶宅， can u imagine i said that? LOL
Anyway the room we got was a suite, so i tot maybe can expect more from the room. But again i was disappointed. The room overall layout is just like a normal 3 room flat, or a chalet unit lor. After which we went to the night bazaar market do have our dinner and do some shopping. Shopping there is shiok, no matter wad price they quote u, pls note that u can actually cut it more den 50%, surprised? me too... anyway we did it almost at every stall, got many good deals that night, bought an Adidas shoes, it was quoted at 100 baht, but we manage to cut it to 500 baht, all thanks to Man Zai, anyway another thing to take note, it is best if u can go learn some basic thai, like how much is the price, numbers from 1 to 10, and 100...200...300 so on and so forth, it really helps, their attitude will change immediately after they know u can speak a little thai. As for now i will post some pics of the 1st day. I will continue the post tml. LOL too tired liao. =p

.. // LuCiFiEd \\ ..

2008-03-24T13:30:00.002+08:00

Monday, March 24th, 2008, Cloudy
Been a very long time since i last updated my blog ba...
kinda busy with many many things. As some would know by now, i got together with Fionn ( a.k.a Weiling ) since 1st of Jan 2008, it ain't a long time together, but many problems have already surfaced. Forcing me to reach my limit soon. Problems mainly is cause of the attitude, the most important factor was because she blew her top when i told her honestly that i was goin to meet YingYing one evening. I understand on her point of view why she flared up...but wad i did was not wrong too wad...i just mainly wanted to go see a friend in need, nothing else. But she fails to see this point as well, making me very very disappointed. Till the extend i'm thinking of letting everything go, before things become worse. I really love her. It wasn't a for fun thing. But i believe everyone has his or her tolerant level limit. Mine is reaching soon. So i told her to give both of us sometime away to cool things off. Let me think about things between us, think bout whether i am ready to continue this relationship.
Well enuff of her, lets change a topic, woohoo, i am goin Thailand in a few more hours time...yeah man, finally can get out from this horrible place. I finally can go relax myself and save me all the trouble of facing all the problems i have here.
Hope i will have a fantastic shopping spree this time round. LOL, will update pics once i get bck k?
Next, YingYing, hey sweetie i noe things are rather weird and messy now on ur side... seriously speaking all the story i heard is so funny lor, u think bout it... there was
1) 七仔
2) Tiger
3) 3 person in the toilet
etc.... i know that u r feeling very upset over this matter because of the person involved. But i can see that u already have seen the light out to this matter so i wun say much. I just wan u to take care of urself, just remember the promise i made to u. =)

Well, guess is off to Thailand liao...

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-12-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a fun day... Haven't had so much fun in a long long time already.
Went swimming with Man Zai, Bing Kiat and Bing Xian... been so so long since i went into a swimming pool already. But the feeling was good though tiring, think i should start goin bck to swim more often.
After swimming we went over to Da Jie's place for dinner...Home cooked food taste so wonderful lor, plus got soup some more, i love drinking soup sia, lol...
Few more days i will need to say byebye to Bing Xian liao, goin into Tekong liao, heard he kanna School 1 BMTC, dunno is it a good or bad thing sia, Hope everything goes well for him ba.

.. // LuCiFiEd \\ ..

2007-11-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

Well, now i am currently attached to 120 sqn, a nice place to be attached to.
My job scope is very simple, wad i need to do is to collect lunch and dinner for the sqn and the hanger guys, maybe ferry pilots around and maybe my clerks to places where they need to submit things. Haha been having a good life there, the ppl there are very very nice to me as well.
Dun mind working late for them, is cool hanging around them. I get to hear many jokes and learn many many things from them.
Was kinda moody today though, haha left the camp at bout 10pm today, one of my Major sent mi down to the gate, so that i could go take the bus home, damnit man, cuz he stays in the East side so i tot i could get a ride bck to the east area, go home also easier mah. But tooooo bad, he had a supper appointment with another Major, so lan lan i gotta get off at the gate there, and walked bout 10 mins to the bus stop where i can get a faster bus home. I have to take bus 857 till SAJC there and change to 154 in order to get home sia, can u believe it, the whole trip takes mi bout 1 hr odd. Oh man i am soooo tired now, haha but i jus realised that i havent update anything for damn damn long le. So here is a post. =x
Well bck to why i felt moody, as i was walking towards the bus stop as mentioned above, i saw the 2 Majors driving pass mi with their vehicle, One drives a BMW 3 series, the other drives a Mazda MX5, haix, sometimes how i wish i really have a car which belongs to me. If so i will never have to bother bout walking to the super far away bus stop anymore. Even though i have 2 cars at home, so wad? Dad uses the Nissan for work, he needs to travel out of office quite often nowadays. As for my brother, haix he's driving the Toyota Starlet. Too bad i couldnt afford the petrol, if not i seriously dun mind driving that. I dun understand this, he shares a Subaru R2 with his gf, he has to pay the installment as well, but weekdays the gf is driving it 24/7... then wads the point of he paying it?? Maybe thats why ppl say when u r in love, u r DAMN FUCKING BLIND.... i agree totally....OMG can u give me a car pls?
Haha i know that it is impossible, i just wan to complaint bout this somewhere....so jus dun care me ba lol

CheeRz, hope everyone is well =)

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-09-23T00:02:00.000+08:00

Life is still kinda boring for me in any case, nothing really much worth mentioning in my blog i find. Just maybe a few things ba...

- Fred, Ah Heng and Francis ORD liao,
Haha the three of them were already senior drivers when i was posted in to SBAB, from the start the taught me many things, be it good or bad, i liked their company, i love gaying around with Fred, i love talk cock with Ah Heng and i like scolding Francis haha though sometimes we tend to bring things a bit too far, but we are all still good frens end of the day. Hope they will have better prospect after getting their PINK IC back liao haha.

- Da Jie,
omg, so many things have happened at her lobby bar, some issuses that are too sensitive to be put into text on the blog, but due to this incident i know from next week on wards will be quite siong for her liao, she wun have much time to rest though, Jo will be away for a week or so... that leaves her with more and more work stress. Hope she can tahan through this period of time, thank god she have her xiao wen wen with her, cuz i noe i wun be much of any help anyway. Most of the time i can only be there to company her if anything happens. Company is to juz pei her wor, not saying i can do anything to cheer her up sometimes. Since now she got a bf liao i better leave all these job for him to accomplish ba. i will just be here if she needs someone.

- Ying,
Met up with sweetie recently, been so so so long since we really spent time together, as in just the 2 of us. Talked about many things that is happening in our life now, some things are really kinda interesting, anyway met her last sunday, drove to her place to pick her up and to pass her mummy the moon cakes i bought for them, glad they liked it, anyway afterwhich we headed to Sun-tec City for our dinner and movie, well, with my driving speed, we got there in no time. Headed for the cinema to get our tickets first, had a small discussion and finally decided to watch "The Invasion" by Nicole Kidman, after we got our tixs we went for our dinner at Crystal Jade, the place where Da Jie's aunt works. Had a wonderful dinner and talk cock session with Ying and Ah yi after our dinner. Everything ended bout 9.35pm, and our show starts at 9.30pm. So we rushed to the cinema to catch our movie. It was quite a "disturbing" movie, the plot was alright in the sense that, its kinda like "Resident Evil" where a virus will try to take over the world. Ya, it was something like that. But there were some scenes which was really kinda disgusting. I rate the show maybe bout 6/10. Average show. So everything ended bout 11 plus so we headed to the car park to get the car and send her back home as both of us got work the next day. On the way back to her place, at bout 11.35pm suddenly my phone rang, the scary part wasnt becuz my phone rang, the scary part was that the number that appeared on the screen was a call from CAMP, at 11.35PM leh.... u see liao wun scared meh? Haha but end of the day it wasnt anything important la, so nothing worth mentioning liao lol.
Sent her home safely after we bought news papers for her parents, it is a normal routine we do every time we went out. Buying of newspaper, opening of letter box, and "rest at the bench beside the letter box" and den send her to her door step. That was the end of the Sunday story.

Met up with her for kopi on tue night at Tiong Bahru kopi bean, only to find out that all kopi bean in Singapore no longer have smoking seats, so we had no choice but to sit at Mac's smoking table, there were some left over food before we sat down. I told Ying not to throw it yet, as it might come in handy later... Just as i predicted, it was indeed useful, cuz we bought kopi bean's drinks and sat at the smoking table of Mac, and there were a bunch of ah lian who wanted a smoking seat but it was all occupied, after seeing our drinks one of them went to complain to the manager of Mac. The Manager came out and had a little talk with us, only to get scolded by mi, haha =x it wasnt on purposed la... she asked if it was okay if we give the seats to that group of ah lian cuz we are consuming food outside of Macs, i was a bit pissed off with that stupid group of ppl, so i asked the manager if she could the tray of left over food on our table, i lied to her saying that the tray of food belong to us, we just havnt finished. So do we have the right to sit here?
i know it was a bit bad of mi to make the situation so tense, haha but that group of bitch deserve it lor... haha so shiok... kk i apologize for being so guai lan lor =x

haha well i think theres nothing else that i will like to add on ba, so i will just end it here and continue watching my anime... haha take care peepz =)
CheeRz

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-07-30T23:02:00.000+08:00

Never update for quite long already right?
Haha here i am, no worries.
Well life is still the same old shit, camp do shitty work, sat still gotta burn for National Day.
Been quite long since i last saw da jie already, she is always busy with work and her "bao bei" not much time left to meet up and talk cock like we used to. I kinda missed the days slacking at kopi bean with all my slacker parties, people like da jie and ying ying.
Anyway think da jie now as long as can see "him" is good enough, thanks to her stupid fucked up schedule.
Actually nothing much to complaint bout recently, things are just normal. Except i miss "you" sia... Thought can see ya yesterday but u put me aeroplane. Hope can see you very soon. Thanks to you i burnt my fingers lol. =x

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-07-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

Been kinda busy recently, never really have the time to update my dear blog.
Anyway, as most of you know, i am involved in this year's National Day Parade,
What i do? Ha ha my main job is to ferry the technicians to the flag flying site, for them to set up the flag for flying during the parade. So technically speaking, i am not at the parade site.
SO PLEASE DUN ASK ME FOR TICKETS, CAUSE I DUN HAVE. =x

Camp have been rather boring nowadays, thanks to my staff, who says will arrange the most relax details for Chris and i. End up? Both of us always get the most tiring ones. Though i may seem like i hate my staff, but actually he has changed to a better guy already. He used to be very very fucked up. Now we are able to joke around, talk cock sing song together.
But sadly he is going to post out real soon. Think is 13th of Aug, we will be holding a farewell bbq for him at East Coast on the 10th of Aug, straight after National Day, Chris and i as usual were arrowed to be the in charged for the event. Sad life man. Ha Ha

Today is my dearest Da Sao's birthday, bought her a little present to show that i care =x
anyway when i was walking to her place, i saw this girl who look so much like "u"
She was like 75% alike to "u", but i know it is not possible for you to appear at that area during that time. Had a shock of my life. Miss "ya" lotxxxx but doubt u will ever know.

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-06-10T17:32:00.000+08:00

A pretty Sunday today, well woke up in the late afternoons, had a crazy day yesterday, let see,
Woke up bout 10 yesterday, headed over to Miao's place at bout 1, met up with Mingliang & Shan then went over to Nat's office to collect my vehicle for the day. Yes, a Mazda Pick-Up, drove around almost the whole day in that. Went over to Mandai Zoo, to meet Jeremy who was already waiting for us since 1.30pm, anyway we reached there only bout 2.30pm, due to some delays. Haha sorry Jeremy. Anyway had lunch at KFC, den went to the zoo for some animal viewing, lol, cool right? 6 adults goin to the zoo... but was quite fun la, though tiring as well. but the animals were cute. Haha especially the polar bear. But ppl, pls remb if u r goin to the zoo, the parking is farking expensive, i spent like $3.80 for like close to 2 hrs.
Anyway after the zoo trip, we went to Marina South for out dinner, met up with Yong Da, Irene, Justin and Samuel who joined us later. Had alot of fun talking cock singing song. Haha it was meant to be a small gathering mah... as usual the gers will talk bout their shopping stuff, as for the guys, yes the normal stuff, NATIONAL SERVICE.... haha
After which dropped them at Marina Bay MRT station liao, we drove bck to Nat's office to "supposely" park the vehicle. Shan and Miao got the chance to try driving on the roads... Haha it was scary but fun though. Played till like 12 plus, den we decided to leave. Miao had the idea we head out for supper, using Shan's father's weekend car... so i of cuz the driver again... sent Justin home first, went over to Changi to see Ah Gua, and den to Geylang for supper. After which drove the vehicle bck to Shan's place, walked Miao home, den took a cabby home. OMG i only manage to get home like 3am plus lor haha tiring but was really fun... Thanks Guys, thanks for taking the time out to meet up. =)

.. // LuCiFiEd \\ ..

2007-05-26T16:11:00.000+08:00

Been sometime since i last update my blog,
Anyway things hasn't really been good for me recently i guess...

Job is as usual boring, just getting fucked everyday for no particular reasons, whether u did your work or not, you will still get fuck by either the black one or the short one.
(only drivers know who i referring to, ha ha)

Relationship, hhmm... lets see, nothing new as well, things r still normal, still waiting for e same person as usual as always, though it has been yrs, ppl told me to let it go, to give it up, i did try, i really did, i swear. But things r just not that simple as u ppl see it, there is something more to like just telling her i like her and being together with her. Anyway i doubt anyone can really understand, except u, Ah loy thanks for always listening to my nonsense and crap, thanks for understanding the situation i am in, u're someone who wun force or scold mi to or when i do anything. I just wan her be happy, i just rather stay in the dark, no need others to see the things i done for her. As long as she appreciates mi, i am contented enuff.

Frens?
Lets see, this is a tricky one, cuz i feel i hav none...seriously...i really hav this feeling running in my head. well for a few days already if u dun believe. I even had a mood swing like yesterday morning, someone kanna from mi over sms, i am really sorry about it... i hope u will forgive me. but wad i told u is true... i really feel that no one is there... i can find no one to even go out with. isn't that very pathetic?
When u ask "A" fren, he or she will say that they are busy, why not ask "B" fren?
Hey...i am not being petty here, i noe u guys hav ur own life as well... but guess none of u guys ever felt the feeling of when u ask someone out, that particular person is always GOIN OUT SOON with his or her gf or bf,
or the feeling of when u ask someone out on their free day, but they put u on hold, on pending, and then letting u noe a few days later that they JUST arranged to go out with someone else liao and they are sorry,
YES i agree i am a boring person, perhaps someone with no frens, or maybe i am just someone who ppl hates... haha anywayz life goes on... i will still continue living on this fucked up world no matter wad... i am juz not a happy person like the rest of u who have ur other half to spend time with u, the person i like doesn't even have time to meet up for a coffee...
Guess no body will understand wad i am goin through...

.. / LuCiFiEd \..

2007-04-21T03:13:00.000+08:00

Been thinking alot bout the past lately... juz like juz now, was with da jie out for coffee at marine parade... we were behing the back door of pool junction last time, that had so many fond memories, haha the place where i knew da jie haha... here are some very important women in my life who had made changes in me, that has cause impact in my life... really like to thank them...

My beloved sweetie, haha Lai YingYing, knowing her has made my life so exciting, full of surprises, she never fails to cheer mi up whenever i am down...or rather make mi smile or laugh when i am extremely angry (think only she dares to do it.)
She knows almost all (99%) of all my darkest secrets, hee hee so i will never make her angry one...if not i am the one that will die =x
Most importantly, she can kick my face wor...(haha our little secret =x)
Hey ger, thanks for all ur advises, ur company and all ur funny jokes we shared... u r one ger i will nv regret meeting in life =)

Wah this little princess ar...important sia this one... been my mental pillar for a couple of yrs liao, whenever i am down i will think of her... will wanna tell her share with her... sounds like my gf? haha aiyah everyone who noes us,shld noe by now, she is only my mosttttttt beloved little sister i will ever hav in my life... hey sis, thanks for standing by me this couple of yrs, thanks for enduring my bad temper, thanks for all e things u hav done for mi as well...dun worry u will nv ever be forgotten one =)
LovE Ya LoTxxxx LotxXxxXxxxxxXxxx
=p

This is one ger i cant miss out... dun worry sis, u r not forgotten, this pretty lady here... happenes to be my da jie, the one person who really shows care and concern when i am really down, giv mi advises when i faced any diff problems, and most importantly keep mi company when i am freaking bored... now she got a nice bf liao, though we meet lesser liao, due to her work or the bf, she will still make time for mi to meet up for a catching up session.

Lastly, the person who changed mi the most...jie, thanks for not giving up on mi all these yrs, still recall that i am a super hot tempered person when i first know ya, remember one time i almost smash the wall outside mega pool, was u who made changes to my character, to my life... little details like asking mi not to bend on my knees, although they might not be very significant stuff to ya, but i rememeber it them all...now u r far away in australia alone...do u miss mi? cuz seriously.... i miss ya badly... everytime u come bck, we always dun hav much chances to meet up to spend time together like how we used to... maybe all our lifes are all diff liao so changes muz be made right? haha anyway good luck in ur studies, i wish ur all e best and grad faster, so can see ya le right? =)
Misses u thousand and one time

so now i will really like to take this chance to thank all of them =)

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-04-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

歌曲：一个像夏天一个像秋天

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音
我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你
你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密

..// LuCiFiEd\\..

2007-04-08T01:56:00.000+08:00

Tot today will be a boring day sia, got home kinda late last night...
Well is fri night mah, now that lao da is not ard liao, i only can meet up with Zhi Xing ge to play pool liao every week. Played till like kinda late, afterwhich went to fei fei for wan ton mee supper. Came home like 5 plus, slpt till like 9 this mornin,korkor woke mi up from my dreamland to go to giant to buy our this week grocerries, bought till like 109 bucks worth of food and drinks, haha can u believe it~ came home to continue my slpin activity.
Woke up by Andy's call asking mi to meet up at Tampines at 6pm to discuss bout our Bintan holiday trip. Didnt really feel like goin one, but his tone was rather fierce so lan lan gotta go...
Met them for dinner and discussed our big plans liao, after that someone suggested that we go play bowling. OMG, i didnt hav much cash with mi mah...so was thinking of heading home, but end up was forced to go AGAIN...if not i am ANTI_SOCIAL (right shirley?) HAHA
Lucky i drove there, so we had 2 cars, mine and Ah Xiong's VIOS...
Headed down to Marina South to play... we played 2 games, with 2 grps, 4 person per grp...
My team consist of
1) Myself
2) Shirley
3) Veron
4) Andy

Oppo team consist of
1) Ah Loy
2) Ah Xiong
3) King
4) Gina

We played 2 games and compare the overall score at the end...
First game we lost to them by like 10-15 points...saded...
Second game, guess wad? We won by 1 point...
Score was 387 over 386
Cause ah loy missed the 10th frame last shot... haha so we were lucky enough to scrape pass by 1 point... LOL

After our bowling session, shirley suggested that we head over to Geylang for supper...
Dim Sum was good, but afte that the gers went to hav durian, omg, cant stand it...haha so i accompany andy in the car to tok cock sing song...send all of them bck and juz got bck not long ago only...wad a tired day, tml think i will hide at home and not ans any calls liao... LOL

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-04-06T15:09:00.000+08:00

Life have been kinda boring still for me, nothing much happened recently anywayz.
Still the same old things happening everyday, driving and driving and still driving haha anyway went over to mei's place to fix her computer recently, wah lao super alot of problem sia, dunno how to fix some of them as well...omg, ppl reading this, pls dun update to service pack 3 yet, as it is not stable yet. Anyway finally the computer is working normally liao,(i hope).
Yesterday was a fun day, haha was on off yesterday, sent daddy mummy to the air port, they went over to China for holiday, leaving mi and korkor alone at home lol. After which, went to NUS to meet mei for lunch, wanted to juz head to any canteen for lunch one, but mei suggested that she wanna hav botak jones western for lunch, so we went to check the location and address liao and headed there for lunch. The food was good, but still kinda ex lor, is alot better den normal western in average la, but kopitiam wor, u charge 10 bucks for fish & chips, though the portion is big la but still...haha mei had fish & chips, den i had lamp chop, total bill added up to be $24.50. For a lunch only wor...haha nvm la, money small prob, most important is mei happy can liao. Waited for her to end lesson, headed down to Arab Street to buy some accessories, thanks to her good fren, who told her the shop was there. We took bout half an hour finding the place, end up to only find out that the shop was along north bridge road, wtf...haha angry leh...so hot somemore...but not my mei's fault...she aso dunno...poor ger gotta walk so long with mi under the hot sun... anyway found the shop, but there wasnt much good stuff, so she decided to leave.
We headed bck her place to go pick up her daddy mummy to go bright hill temple to pray her korkor, hard to find place, but with the help of daddy manage to get there safely lol. After praying went bck to Whampoa for dinner, had fish head pot, wah cool man the soup taste good man...haha Weishan joined us for dinner as well, haha like one happy family sia lol.
After which came home to rest liao, was kinda sick, cuz the whole day under the bloody hot sun, so end up didnt meet da jie veron they all at night. They had plans to go a place call "The Roof" to chill out. Lucky didnt go, heard from da jie it was full hs there so end up they gotta go other place like CHIMES, she had a boring night. Complained to mi on the car juz now when i send her to work. Hhmm nothing much else to update le ba, think will end here ba... take care~ will update soon again when i feel like it... =p

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-03-24T05:00:00.000+08:00

每个女孩都是天使，

当她落下地一滴眼泪时，

上帝就会收回她的翅膀。

世间的男孩们都该知道，

当你面前的女孩，

为你落下第一滴眼泪时...

她已经为你放弃了整个天堂...

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-03-11T22:13:00.000+08:00

Well, been noticing slight changes in my life...
Think as most of ya know, my da jie found a guy who loves her alot, i'm aso glad that she is happy
but guess that i am maybe juz too used to her being ard, causing mi to feel as though i lost a sister. Its ok, its not the 1st time i went through this kinda feelings anyway, feeling as though i hav no life, everyday juz slack at home, thinking of all the funny things.
Wonder if i will kill myself one day?
*scratch head*
Like wad she mentioned in her blog, we r meeting lesser and lesser as the days go by, kinda not used to her not being here, plus nowadays wasnt that pleasant for mi,
Receieved news that lao da is leaving for Australia to work soon... i really felt sad when i heard this news, that will mean that i will hav one good fren less, or rather 2 including da sao. Why must god play such a prank on an innocent like mi? cause i always scold ya?
If thats really the case i will TRY not to scold u dat often lor...one by one of my good frens leaving me, and dere's nothing i can do bout it. haix...
Wad the hell...!!

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-03-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

Suddenly felt this few sentences very meaniful...
something i dun mind saying and doin for and with the one i love =)

春天散步
夏天看海
秋天数落叶
冬天飘雪
我是棉被温暖你的夜
一直在你身边
一直爱到永远

.. // LuCiFiEd \..

2007-02-16T13:08:00.000+08:00

Ever felt alone in this world?
Ever feel that actually u dunno if u belong to this world?
Ever feel that even though u hav many frens, but when u need them, they r nv there?
Ever wanna end ur misery by juz killing urself? (well, it did cross my mind)

Somehow, life seems or rather feels empty, is like a part of myself is missing, juz cant seem to find it anywhere... Yes i do agree dat i hav frens, good frens rather...
But when u feel lonely or alone, when u need someone to company u, no one seems to be ard?
Starting to feel sick and tired of trying to be the good guy, being there for ppl who needs mi...
Think i am starting to feel selfish, i dun care wad others say, cuz i doubt others noe wad i am goin through, i really juz need someone there for mi, juz like i am there for the rest. Maybe that someone is juz "u" but u nv will know how much u actually means to mi... but its ok, anyway all along i nv pin any hopes on it anyway. I miss u...i really do, but i am trying my best to let everything go, i am really trying...
Others will juz say, juz let go, but how many ppl actually noe how i feel?
So what if we wun together? The feelings i hav for her is not any diff from how others feel for their other half...
Can anyone...ANYONE...save mi from this darkness i am in, bring light into my life once again...
I jus wanna lead a normal life... without thinking of her most of the time... thinking if she got home liao? thinking whether did she had her lunch? thinking when she falls sick, is there anyone there to take care of her...thinking whether did the guy bully her? thinking how lucky will i be if the guy is mi...many many tots are juz in my head... but truthfully, how many ppl understand?
Saying is easy, doing it is hard, letting go is harder.
Save mi from this miserable life i am in...pls someone...

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-02-14T01:33:00.000+08:00

歌曲：不远

歌手：萧亚轩 专辑：1087

☆music☆
突然那几秒
好像天使飞过
看著你微笑
那段时间都禁止
远远的注视
仿佛爱情就该如此
为所爱的人
在我心里留一个位置
虽然那前方模糊
可是想法清清楚楚
比所有人都渴望你能幸福
我站在你不远处
默默地为你祝福
把对你的爱藏起来
放你去寻找追逐
我站在爱的不远处
不在乎守候多辛苦
当你孤单时想起我
那是我最大的幸福

对你的期待
每段都有记载
每一个眼神
我都想要收藏起来
不害怕寂寞
不止一样没人明白
已经快忘了
当初迁就在这里等待
虽然那前方模糊
可是想法清清楚楚
比所有人都渴望你能幸福
我站在你不远处
默默地为你祝福
把对你的爱藏起来
放你去寻找追逐
我站在爱的不远处
不在乎守候多辛苦
当你孤单时想起我
那是我最大的幸福
我站在你不远处..哦

2007-01-23T15:26:00.000+08:00

Went to Changi for a spin last night, was kinda in a very confused mood, dunno if the decision i made is right or wrong, but its too late liao anyway, will stick to it and hope i can do it. Anyway the important part was i had a female passenger along with mi in the car, my dearest "Da Jie", saw many many "Ah Gua" along the streets. OMG some of them really look so pretty, some of them are even prettier than some of the girls out there... haha no offense but thats the truth.
We parked at the car park to take 5 and see the "char bor"s, see how guys approach them and how they work haha it was so funny, there was this 7 seater which stopped by the road side, with 4 guys in the car, they started tokin to the Ah Guas by the road side, and before u notice, the other Ah Guas from no where will all start to gather beside the car, toking cock singing song with them. Haha shortly we left the car park, but we made a U-Turn to hav a closer look at them behind the 7-seater. We saw them taking the soft toys from the car and putting it into their dress la, trying to act horny, OMG, cannot stand it sooooo funny lor... den there was one of them, "he-she" took one of the soft toy and started rubbing against the other "he-she" 's ASS, lifting up the mini skirt she was wearing, oh my god....den they started hugging each other doin the action as if they were "fu*king"...stunnnnnnned!!!!
One of them walked down the road as there were other cars behind ours as well, we aint the only one stopping to see show... LOLX

"IT" walked passed our car and suddenly said something which shocked mi even till now,
Below is the exact conversation in chinese...
("哦，没有的抱抱，因为你车上有女人，没有的爽爽。")

Can you believe it? She or rather He told mi that....hahaha mi and da jie laughed till stomach cramp sia all the way driving home... lol next time must find chance go with guys see wad other funny things can happen LOLX!!!

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-01-22T20:38:00.000+08:00

22/01/2007
8.39pm, Home, Windy Night...

Was out with Da jie yesterday, went to this new shopping mall called "Square 2", a brand new shopping mall, but not fully in operation as yet. Spent all the 100 Dollars vouchers she got from her company, after which we headed down to OPH, cuz she wanted to spot check on her girls over at Lobby Bar, so i went over to Banquet side to kaypo kaypo lor as usual... went to find them go see scenery haha *hidden code word*
After everything we headed to kopi bean to chill, got myself a pure vanilla ice blended (as usual), had a taste of their caesar salad last night, OMG it was heavenly lor, havnt tasted such a good salad for damn long le... though it was kinda ex la, but i think still ok la...willl make it something that i will eat often. Healthy and taste good!!!
Anyway while rotting there, some tots did ran through my head, i think is really time to let go, let go of the past, let go of the memories, most importantly... let go of her... i find that it will lead to no where eventually, no matter how i feel for her, sometimes not suitable means not suitable... hokkien call "buay gum" ar...why force myself and make mine and her life difficult.
Remain as frens, occasionally come out for a kopi session or a movie aso alright la... As for the trip we plan to go during March, now i am not sure if she can make it... but i will still go ahead with the plans anyway, cuz i got ppl like da jie, veron andy, and shirley ma haha

Its really time to wake up liao, hope i can do it, make it my new yr resolution ba =x

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

2007-01-17T21:28:00.001+08:00

喜欢，爱

喜欢，是一种心情
爱，是一种感情

喜欢，是一种直觉
爱，是一种感觉

喜欢，可以停止
爱，没有休止

喜欢一个人，特别自然
爱一个人，特别坦然

喜欢一个人，有时候盼和她在一起
爱一个人，有时候怕和她在一起

喜欢一个人，希望他可以随时找自己
爱一个人，希望可以随?闭业剿?

喜欢一个人，总是为她而笑
爱一个人，总是为她而哭

喜欢，是执着
爱，是值得

喜欢就是喜欢，很简单
爱就是爱，很复杂

喜欢你，却不一定爱你
爱你，就一定很喜欢你

其实，喜欢和爱仅一步之遥
但，想要迈这一步
就看你
是喜欢迈这一步，
还是爱迈这一步了..... ~_^

2006-12-30T23:41:00.000+08:00

Like this two pics alot, but too bad my hand dunno why like weird weird de like wad ying told mi... but anyway the most important thing is how she looked with the birthday present i bought her this yr, lol, though not all but the necklace is nice enuff, i love the way she look with that necklace... hope she really like it

oh my how time flies,
i still remb when i first noe her, her hair was still long... den she agreed to help some fren of hers do a hair show, den end up getting her hair to get damaged, in the end she gotta cut her hair so so so short. Haha i still yelled at her in Taka when i saw her new hair style lor, lol, like a little boi like that soooo cute... haha den after which we went shopping for her cap cuz she didnt wan ppl to see her short short hair...haha afterwhich we went for a short holiday as well, came bck to continue slogging in school for all the projects and exams blah blah blah...days juz continue to pass, we would juz occasionally meet up for kopi or movie as well... sometimes when i am free i will juz send her home as well, cuz i rather spend time with her den go home and rot. Spending time with her is juz so relaxing, having her around i can hav no worries, need not think bout all the troublesome problem in life...
Till now, her hair already so long liao, haix....been sooo long le ar...i didnt notice myself as well... but things hav been dragging for soo many yrs liao ar... haix.... why? why? why?
When will i hav the courage to tell her everything?

2006-12-29T21:18:00.000+08:00

29 Dec 2006, Clear sky... Confused mind... Mixed tots...

Many things have been running through my mind lately...
Met up with "Her" the day before yesterday for coffee, chit chated till late as usual
talked bout many things happening in both our lifes. Got to noe somethings that actually still bothering mi till now. There is this new guy in her life apparently, they both seem to be able to click very well... the guy seems to be wooing her, but currently we are not sure bout the situation juz as yet. But she didnt deny when i asked if there was a possibility that the both of them will be together. Well if u compare, this guy has a stable job and income... why not?
I am juz a SAF Driving, earning like peanuts every month.
So wad if i really really really really like u alot... does it matter?
Can love be changed into money?
Though ppl always say that money is not everything... i dun really agree when it comes to this phrase. Yes, its partly true that money is not everything... but money plays a very big part in life. A part big enuff to change lifes between 2 person.
Just like my case....
For these past yrs, i always understand that it was kinda impossible for the both of us to be together... but a part in me says to hold on... to stand by her... to giv her my love and concern when she needs someone. Hoping for a miracle to happen. But everyone noes that it is rather not possible lor... so who am i tryin to lie? MYSELF?!

.. // Lu Ci FiEd \\ ..

2006-12-26T00:08:00.000+08:00

Finally Xmas has passed,
Wasnt much of a holiday i can say... didnt really do much as well
Lets see...
Hhhmm xmas eve was spent over at Veron's, there was actually a bbq at Changi but due to the rain it was called off... so we decided to cook the stuff over at Veron's place... That was anyway our back up plan ma =p
After which, watched a dumb show called "Are u ScAreD?"
Fucking lame show, i tot how scary it can get... i almost fell asleep while watching, so stupid sia
After the boring show, they drag mi into playing mahjong, so lanlan no choice mi and ah loy gotta entertain the 2 ladies, Shirley and Veron.
Lost in the end, as usual, been down on luck recently.
Lucky thing, Andy got a lorry to send all of us home, so can save cab fare...LOLX
Got home at bout 6 plus. Freaking shag sia, still gotta wake up in the afternoon for our long waited xmas lunch over at Stacie's uncle's place... haha
Got up bout 12.45pm the next day and drove to pick aaron alex and han over to the location of our lunch. Had abit too much of food which made mi freaking bloated haha but all tasted soooo good... anyway after leaving we headed over to Han's house for mahjong... lost 18 bucks in the end... thats it man... i swear i will not play anymore mahjong this month liao LOLX =x

Anywayz had some pics, but havent upload yet, taken during today's lunch... will update soon =p

The following is one of the most important women in my life... without her... i wun be the person i'm now...maybe someone worse den now... thank god for sending her into my life...for changing mi... for doin all the stuff this past few yrs... be it for mi or for my family... love ya soooo much MuAcKs!!!

2006-12-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

Been sometime since i updated my bloggy liao, anyway nothing much happened in my life recently... still the same old stuff ba...
Perhaps only a few things worth mentioning ba,
1) I finally got my military license liao, passed my driving test with juz 4 points, had a taste of even driving a class 5 vehicle, or wad the call a "5 tonn" in army terms
Anyway was quite happy when i passed the test, need to thank many people who shared their exp with mi, though i noe they wun get to see it, but still worth mentioning ba i guess, they are all my beloved teachers during this course,
Mr Eric Woo ( My Shi Fu ),
Mr Koo,
Mr Terence,
Mr Thomas Quek,
And all the remaining DIs who had been there for us Group 43!!!

Anywayz had fun during this driving course, is aso becuz of this course i got to noe many many good frens, excluding see poh seng who i noe since i got into SBAB, people like Daren, Lucus, Benny, Poh, Roger... and many many more...
Hope will hav a chance whereby we all can meet up again...

Juz recently, celebrated daddy's birthday with the WHOLE family, which includes "u" as well, thanks for sparing time and effort to buy the present and be at the celebration. Daddy's of cuz is very happy la, been so long since i last saw u wor... had a great time with u that night, haha specially when we went to sing KTV haha so funny lor... both of us weird weird de LOLX, actually took a couple of pics, but shen havent send mi so cant update...sorry haha
Thank you all these yrs, thank you for being there, be it for mi or for my family, no wonder mummy treats u like her own daughter...haha anyway really thank you...miss u soooo much!!!

Juz the recent fri night, i went in to the police station... haha dun worry i didnt kill anyone... its a long story so i dun intend to type it out... so if u wish to noe juz ask mi... i shall end off here ba i guess, kinda tired... byebye =)

.. // Lu CI FiEd \\..

2006-11-12T19:31:00.001+08:00

歌曲：心肝宝贝

我我为你付出所有的
我的担心我的甜蜜我的呼吸
你的笑绝对的神奇你的哭绝对的可惜
因为你让我明白生命的真谛
可知道你的不小心会让我伤心一辈子
我是愿意为了你今生永不渝
为我你要好好自己保护自己
慢慢的学习不要干着急
一步一步走出每一个谷底坚定不移
为我你要好好自己保重身体
在每一段的路总会一身污泥
心肝宝贝不要怀疑最爱的就是你(最爱的是你)
你你是我一生的唯一
你的声音你的鼓励我的意义
如果没好好的身体
你我怎能永远在一起
外面的风和雨已不是问题
你永远是我的心肝,而我已不是你的宝贝

2006-11-08T19:16:00.000+08:00

Nov 08, 7.16pm, Windy, blowing through my cold cold heart.
Was feeling kinda down due to some stuff happening ard nowadays.
Thank goodness i kanna 2 days MC, came home from Sembawang.
Met up with "someone"last night, seeing her really cheered mi up quite alot.
We went for dinner at Sushi Tei over at Paragon. Haha the food was so so la, but kinda ex still.
Well nvm la, juz for fun try it out aso alright la, no harm.
Afterwhich we decided to go for a movie as time was still early, tried to catch the show, Convenan, but the timing was rather fucked up, so we changed plans to watch Material Girl instead, as they hav the time slot there. End up finding out that it was a PRIVATE SCREENING for that show, plus her bf wanna watch both Convenan and Material Girl with her, so i of cuz respect her decision.
Just when we were about the leave, she asked if i mind watching "Flushed Away"...
Haha the show i was telling Bernard back in camp that those slugs look like shit
Anyway i didnt really mind, juz happy that can spend some time with her as well, cuz i feel that in days to come she will be more and more bz liao, so now got time to spend together i am happy enuff... The show was rather good, so funny, specially the part where 3 "shitty" slugs jumped out to sing the song "Mr Lonely"... Haha laughed till both of us almost faint
Had a nice night juz with her company and toking cock with her LOLX.

Woke up the next morning...
hhmm...nothing to do wor, so i juz watched the new show which i got from a fren. A show showing on SCV now i think, 御用闲人， quite a nice show haha had a good laugh as well.
Lunch time was near, i had a appointment with Miss Lai, someone who is very hard to ask out one. LOLX right girl?
anyway was so happy to hav lunch with her, been so long that we walked to Maxwell Market for our routine lunch, talked alot bout wad happened in both our lifes, feel so blissed to hav her around in my life, no need to trouble bout anything when i am with her, able to say and do anything freely without feeling restricted. Thanks girl, love ya sooooo much *MuAcKs*
Had our fish soup bee hoon, woah, tasted good man, maybe perhaps is cuz she was there =x
Anyway after which i headed home after sending her bck to office, we even discussed bout a over seas trip next yr, hope nothing goes wrong.
As for now, i am bout to go bck to camp liao, will only be coming bck this coming Sat, so well, till den will update again tc people =)

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

2006-11-05T16:24:00.000+08:00

Wad is Morale Values?
I used to think is telling the truth, doin good deeds.
But lately i'm seeing it differently,
Now i think that morale value is about finding that one thing u really care about.
That one special thing that means more than anything in the world.
And when u find her...
You fight for her, you risked it all...
You put her in front of everything, your future, your life. All of it.
Even if the stuff you do to help her is not so clean,
but you noe wad?
it really doesnt matter.
Cause in ur heart u really know,
That everything is worth it.
Thats wad morale values are all about

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

2006-10-22T15:41:00.000+08:00

"Almost Here"
(feat. Brian McFadden)

Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here

*I try and make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I'm living life day to day
It's never really easy but it's ok*

2006-10-22T03:52:00.000+08:00

Oct 22 2006, Sunday, 3.53am - Windy.
Unable to slp at this hour, was goin through photos of u and me, juz by looking at the photos i noe i miss u soooo much. But i aso noe that u have no time, no time for me, maybe i am really juz a really normal fren to u. Sad, but that might be the fact. So wad if i really love u, u will nv nv understand how i really feel. Is not that i nv say it out before, but u always juz avoid the topic. Sometimes i really juz wish things are juz simplier, ppl are juz simplier. Why is everything so complicated?
I really juz wish to hold u in my arms, without saying i love u. People ard mi might say i'm silly, but i am still like that. I am still the same me, the one u knew 3 yrs ago.

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

You Again...

2006-10-11T19:36:00.000+08:00

11 Oct, Wed, 7.38pm, Misty, Thanks to the haze.
Today is the eve of my driving course, yes, i am finally startin my course but it will be a stay in course for the next couple of weeks depending on how fast i can pass. Will be stayin in Sembawang Camp, the camp seems sucky, went there for the course breifing, the place suxs, the ppl there suxs as well... oh my... sian... but no choice still hav to face it. Feeling kinda sad to go for this course, this will mean that for the next 2 months i wun be able to play with choo choo, fedrick, chris and all my fellow drivers in SBAB MTLO. I sure will miss them alot.
Anyway called mei, this afternoon when rotting on the sofa, told her wad was running in my mind.
Yes, is "YOU", the image of u juz keep appearing in my head, the memories we shared, the joy we had and the path we walked together. I really miss u, but i noe u will never noe. If i can ever turn bck time, i will ask u to giv mi the chance to let mi hold ur hand and walk down this road together, hand in hand till the day we die. I really like you alot. Dun ask mi why, i juz noe i like you. No special reasons. Staying in from tml on wards is making it worse, not being able to see u is such a terrible thing for mi, is as if a torture i hav to go through. Will there ever be a chance dat we can be together? You really nv consider it before? Or u really think good frens is enuff?
If so i really hav nothing to say but ask u to consider and think bout it....... if u ever see this post.

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Wedding is a TIRING THING

2006-09-30T13:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the long awaited wedding that we hav been looking forward to... omg Veron and Andy finally got married haha
The whole day was soooooooooooo tiring... had to go manyyyy places...
lets see....
1) Kallang Air Port
2) Sengkang
3) Ubi
4) Bedok
5) Kallang Air Port
6) Sengkang
7) Novotel

Drive till mad sia, haha but was fun la overall... well many things happened yesterday, both good and bad...but lazy to mention the bad ones la... anyway the dinner was held at Novotel Clark Quay, at Liang Court. Da jie and i were the emcees for the night, kinda worried we kanna stage fright in front of 300 ppl. Haha anyway everything went on quite smoothly, we even went to PS cafe for some cakes and drinks after the dinner. For those who dunno, PS cafe is located ON TOP OF A HILL.... near Holland, my god, a bird dun lay egg place... imagine there isnt even street lamps. Took many pics last night, shall upload it below...

The Big Day

2006-09-27T20:50:00.000+08:00

Friday is coming, Our dearest Veron & Andy's big day is finally coming le.
Wah sian suddenly realised getting married is such a troublesome thing, there r juz sooooo many things u need to prepare, need to do and need to settle, i see liao aso scared sia.
This time round, i am doing more things as compare to during lao da's wedding, now i got a new job scope, and that is to drive ppl ard on that day, lol, juz becuz i am a driver in Sembawang Air Base, haha KNS... anyway will try not to drink, cuz there are ppl sitting in my car. Speaking of car, i tot i will be driving the very old Ford car which Da Jie's father rented, apparently there has been a change in plans...i will be drivng her uncle's Honda Civic instead haha a black & manual car~ Woah~ hopefully nothing will go wrong...
During the day, i will help out as driver and brother to help Andy snatch Veron over... LOLX... but i will hav to face Da Jie at Veron's place haha wun that be fun... =p
During the night, i will hav to test the mics, carry stuff, picking ppl up from different places ( Da Jie and Ying ), afterwhich Da Jie and i will be emcees for the night, doin event order, making sure things goes well and on time. Seems like a super busy day sia...
After the dinner i heard they still wanna go to PS cafe to have some cakes and coffee or tea. After which is to Devils to finish the remaining liquor which Da Jie has...
Shld be staying in the hotel after everything endes, hopefully wun not die yet by then.
This is not the end to everything, sat night me and Da Jie hav another wedding to attend sia, IT IS FREAKING HELL AT BUKIT BATOK lor... we will hav to come home from the hotel to bath and change after which head down for ANOTHER wedding dinner... sibei sian hahaha, freaking poor sia!!! who can spare mi some money~ =p
Photos will be uploaded soon...so not to worried, u can see mi taking pics with many many pretty gers =p

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

2006-09-24T00:23:00.000+08:00

What a tiring day, met lao da for pool last night, den had supper till 5 plus, got home to bath and change and headed down to Boon Lay for the Air Force Walk & Jog...in order to earn my one day off to use on Veron's Wedding.
Rushed home straight to sleep liao, den da jie called up saying need to come over to use the computer, of cuz i welcome her la. Haha but after she got here, while she used the comp i was ZzzZZzz-ing... sorry ar jie...
Afterwhich i had lunch with her and send her off to work. Didnt do much today aso, spend some time and had dinner with mummy, seems like ages since i last ate with her. After dinner i came home to complete watching my show, was kinda touched with the story line... felt kinda sad after watching it, felt that my life was somehow like the character in the story... haix...

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

Fear

2006-09-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

Till today den i realised actually there is something that hav been bothering mi for quite sometime le, the fear in mi is getting stronger...
One of my close fren is changing, changing to someone who i no longer know, many things hav changed, be it attitude or character...
is it due to surrounding?
or has it always been like that only thing is that i didnt really know?
No matter wad u asked, the comments or feedback u get is always kinda cold, i no longer feel the warmth or concern from the advises or comments anymore... feeling very sad... why must things change?
i really hate changes, specially someone who holds such a important place in my heart.
so heart broken... where is the old "you" ?
i really miss u...

.. // LuCiFiEd \\..

2006-09-08T01:20:00.000+08:00

Today is already the 8th of Sep liao,3rd day of my block leave wahaha
As for some ppl, they r goin to enlist soon liao, haha now u guys finally noe how i felt 3 months ago?
anyway i got a good brother who is goin in soon liao as well, Justin... my best buddy i got to noe during my poly days, a nice dude i met since yr 1 sem 1, someone who can tahan my crap and crap along with mi... hey brother this is for u... take care of urself when u r inside... if there's anything u need my help juz drop mi a call k... u shld noe i am best at giving stupid ideas, how many ppl actually pass out BMT like mi sia? haha

Anyway, went to this ktv place last night with da jie, cuz she wanted to hav some beer, as usual i dun drink, tryin to quit drinking... anywayz saw a "her" last night there, dunno wad to say as well, but she dun recongise mi liao i guess with the hair now... seeing her made mi think of the days we shared together, though was short but was very very sweet... not long after seeing her, suddenly the song "Love Me" started playing on the ktv system, this affected mi even more... cuz this song hav a special meaning for the both of us. But after so many yrs le, she has changed soooo much till the extend i almost dun recongise her as well... well like wad da jie said, ppl will grow up and change no matter wad... guess she is juz no longer the "her" i noe ba... if time can turn back again, i will definetly change things... regret...now i can only live in regret but its juz all too late le...

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

2006-09-06T17:35:00.000+08:00

So much has happened this past three months... and yesterday marks the end to my BMT in Mohawk COY, been through many many things, know many many good frens as well, really enjoyed the days where by all of us suffered together as a MOHAWK WARRIOR!!!
Anyway yesterday was my POP, so from today onwards i am having my block leave, reporting to a new unit on the 18th of Sep, dunno wad vocation will i be allocated to sia, kinda worried!

Enough bout army, few days ago a fren of mine msged mi regarding my previous post, well, yup maybe i am talking bout u all, i dun deny, but i am not angry or wad so ever, i am juz saying wad i feel, after the call i understand that all hav their lifes to lead, be it sch or army or work... so its kinda hard for everyone to meet up like last time liao ba i guess...

Met up with them last night, felt kinda sad after that, realised that now we no longer tok bout the same things like before le, work and army juz don't quite mix well together i guess... anyway i am juz glad that she is still alright with her life and everything, though i dunno why she complaint that she is growing fatter liao... haha auntie u r not fat la. so slim liao still dun eat... cannot tahan u ar... haha though we seldom meet up liao, but i hope wad u told mi before will come true... miss ya a millionzzz

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Weird?

2006-09-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

Had lots of time to think about many many things happening ard in my life.
Find that there are actually many interesting things that r happening without any logic.
One very typical example will be, how can a group of good frens still stay bonded when there r alot of problems which exist among the group. wun u feel weird? i dunno apparently there r ppl can do it. Is not like i am not making any effort to ask lor... i tried my best to gather us together be it even if it is juz a normal mahjong game... but it seems like i am taken for granted, guess i am not needed ba... if thats the way things are goin to be, i dun mind... it doesnt make a diff with or without u all ard mi, anyway i am used to being alone sometimes. There r still ppl worth calling frens out there, dun worry i noe who u all are...
As usual when i hav more free time i tend to think alot about the past,
i miss u alot... been sometime since we last seen each other le, do u miss mi?
i noe "u" wun see this post one, haix so wads the point of mi saying so much...
A msg from u can change my day from sunny to rainy or the other way round.
This is how big a impact u hav in my life... I used to be very confused about wad i wan or rather who i really like. But guess i wun be blur like a sotong anymore, i am clear bout wad direction i am heading liao. Though it is a dead end, but dunno why, i still chose to head this way. Maybe i am juz like that. So juz let mi be ba...
** i really miss u **

((// LuCiFiEd \\))

2006-08-29T17:04:00.000+08:00

关于喜欢和爱，你，又明白了多少呢？
茫茫人海中，你爱过?？
而你，又曾被深深地喜欢过呢？

爱是她在的时候，眼睛里只有她一人；她不在的时
候，一切都带有她的影子。

喜欢是在深夜看书时突然想起她，想象他现在做什
么，心里漾起一阵轻飘飘的温暖，却从不主动给他
打电话。几分钟后，注意力又重新被书中的情节吸
引!

爱是在寂寞的夜里，思念如潮水般涌来，手里捧着
书却怎么也看不进去，心里惦记着她此时是否还在
加班，吃没吃晚饭，是不是如自己想着她一般想着
自己..

喜欢是出门在外给他发个短信，告诉他这边的天气
很好，然后把手机关掉，独自在异地疯玩一个星
期，晒成一个黑人后突然出现在他面前吓他一跳。

爱是无论到哪都希望有他陪伴。可以站在海边给他
打手机，让他听听海浪的声音；也可以因为在异乡
的街道上看到一个酷似他的背影而愣在?地久久不
动。

喜欢是在受伤的时候，不想让他看到自己脆弱的一
面，在他面前把眼泪悄悄抹掉，转? 芬廊皇且桓?
快乐坚强的模样。

爱是在受委屈的时候，爬在他的胸前痛哭，没有伪
装没有顾虑，把所有的烦恼统统告诉他，并渴望从
他的怀抱中得到安慰。

喜欢是听她讲自己童年的趣事，然后哈哈大笑，心
中涌起一阵莫名的感动。

爱是听她讲自己童年的趣事，然后微微一笑，心中
更加怜惜眼前这个曾?如此调皮捣蛋的傻女人。

喜欢是在楼道里碰上她，愉快的和她打声招呼，再
简单寒暄几句，擦肩而过的时候看见了窗外明媚的
阳光，心情无端端地好了起来。

爱是在楼道上看见她，脸上装出一副毫不在乎的表
情，但在擦肩而过时细心感受身边颤动的空气，于
是忍不住回头望一眼，看着她渐渐地离去。

喜欢一个人是想要她是自己的，所以，可以喜欢很
多人，想要很多人都是自己的。

爱是明明离不开她，却要不得不放弃她，因为她要
的幸福，我给不了。而我，也只能希望看她能够找
到自己的幸福，即使那份幸福不是我给的...

喜欢是，希望寂寞的时候，无聊的时候，伤感的时
候，找个人说说话。

爱是，在任何时候都想跟她分享，快乐的时候甚至
希望把所有快乐都给了他。

喜欢是，在很久很久没联络的时候，接到她的电
话，然后笑着听她说话。

爱是，在几天没有联络的时候，着急得的打电话给
她，然后忍住眼泪笑一笑。

Ktv

2006-08-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

Helloz, i juz got bck from KTV at Teo Heng with Da jie, wad a tiring day...
Went for the fitting session for Veron's wedding this afternoon, tried out my Tuxcedo liao,
Woah i look cool... haha cant wait for that day to come den take more pictures den can share with u all, anyway i will most prob be renting a car for that weekend... too many places to go, too many ppl to pick up too. Need to send da jie here and there to pick up things and settle stuff, need to pick up "Auntie" after her work as well... After the morning ceremony i juz realised that not only da jie will be on my car, but some other ppl as well... Oh my, i have other ppl's life on my hands sia, kinda stress thinking bout it. But AI ZAI, i can do it... haha
Went over to Veron's after the fitting session, had our dinner there as well... after which we were supposed to play mahjong, but due to some small things, Veron and Andy gotta go to YCK for her mum's birthday. So Da jie and i had to leave as well, but the only thing was that, WHERE CAN WE GO??
Recently we have been facing this same problem over and over again...so so tired thinking of places to go sia, haha anyway after much discussing, we decided to head down to Teo Heng instead. Had some training session there, haha train one song which we sang 5 times, haha not goin to tell u all wad song isit =p
Sang many many songs, till throat kinda pain liao now, haha saw many MTVs as well...
A particular MTV made mi think of many things again...

Jolin's new song... “心型圈”

To that someone:
Remember before u went home, wad i wrote on ur hand before u entered the door of ur home?
Haix, though was the past, but it juz suddenly struck mi by a sudden... i remb almost everything that happened during that period of time. i really still do...

..//LuCiFiEd\\..

Reflection

2006-08-22T00:45:00.000+08:00

七情六欲

醉了吧反正清醒更断肠
无理去原谅你被叛
算了吧反正有你更孤独
你不会知道遗忘有多难

给你的心不要你还痛不要你偿
陪你走过一段七情六欲全都品尝
爱你的苦不要你扛泪不要你挡
七情六欲打翻
笑著哭哭著笑去想你的模样

走了吗走到那都一样
你不肯搬出我心上
断了吗断了见面想不断
为何我总是为难我的慌

Weird Things Happening Around Me

2006-08-21T06:54:00.000+08:00

For some people who know, i used to have back problem.
Seems like the problem is getting more serious after my enlistment, thanks to the super heavy field pack which i have to carry, it kinda worsen my condition le. Went to Changi Hospital not long ago for my X-Ray and made appointment to see the dear specialist there. But the brief problem i was told was that, my spine is somehow hitting on my nerves le causing the pain i am suffering.
After reporting my body condition the my company PC, he suggested that maybe i shld be excused for everything, becuz i cannot even carry heavy stuff. Lucky thing is that, even with the excuse i am able to pass out of BMT as i completed my field camp and range already. So how will my future posting be like, i am not sure bout it myself as well... haix leave it to fate ba!!

Some of u muz be wondering looking at this entry timing, i shld be in camp by now right?
Haha i took a 2 days MC, returning to camp only on tue morning. But everythings kinda weird, I CAN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT!!!! can u believe it????
Average i slp bout only 3-4 hrs the most a day
wtf is wrong with mi sia....
Anyway during this period of time, many things many people came into my mind, starting thinking bout many things which happened in the past. Some funny memories some sad ones, in particular there is someone i really miss alot...but the person is not "here".
(dun anyhow guess!!! nothing related to BGR nor dead)
This important person has changed many things bout me. From wad i recall i used to be a super hot tempered guy who is considered ah beng, she changed me... she changed my life
The closeness, the relationship we share is it still there?
Am i still someone important in ur life?
Comparing myself to the others, somehow i dun find that i have a place in ur heart.
It hurts thinking bout it.....
Maybe i'm juz thinking too much le...guess i shld move on....

Well enuff of sad things, lets talk bout some happy stuff~
YEAH!!! Veron's wedding is around the corner liao...
GUESS WAD~ Da Jie and i were appointed to host the event on that very evening~
wad a shock i got when i heard the news, but its ok, i will gladly do my part for my dearest Veron and Andy...
Haix, now comes the headach part... i need to be in Tux... so guess i need to go shopping again for long sleeves shirt again liao, like lao da's wedding that time... haha all these are goin to burn a big big hole in my darling pocket sia... Haha

.. // LuCiFiEd \\ ..

21st Birthday

2006-08-12T10:17:00.000+08:00

Hhmm, oh man i am turning 21 soon liao, shit man feeling so old suddenly...
Anyway had a chalet celebrating mi and Da Jie's birthday together over at Pasir Ris Holiday Bunglow on the 8th of Agust...
It was a fun chalet celebration, many good and old friends turn up to grace the occasion...
People who included,
Ron,Lex,Han,Stacie,Jeremy,Ivy,Justin,Yongda,Ivan,Lailin,
Weishan,Irene,Weian,Xinxian,Xue,Ying,
Man Zai,Kiat,Xian,Iris,Sharon,Kelvin,Veron,Andy
MOST IMPORTANTLY my meimei Miao Juan
and all of my relatives...(sorry if i missed out any names)
Anyway juz like to say thank you for all ur presences and presents, a big thank you for the people who help to make everything a success, the biggest credit goes to my daddy and mummy, i love them!! Thanks for making mi and kailing's birthday an unforgetable one.
Below are some photos from that day!!!

Updates...

2006-08-05T04:47:00.000+08:00

Well it has been quite sometime since i updated my blog...
Now lets see... wad is there to tok about...
Well, first thing first, i manage to survive through my field camp which i tot was impossible
So i am now a offical MOHAWK Warrior... haha proud to be in this company, though the training is very very siong... but least i hav the pride
My next upcoming shit i hav to face will be my situation test, dunno wad the hell it will be like but still i suck thumb aso hav to go through it... so guess i will juz hav to bear with it.

Next, hhmm... i juz got home after celebrating my dearest Da Jie's birthday... we went to the KBOX in Cine, wah kaoz sia soooooo many people came, including the chefs from the restaurant. Ricky came as well, so as usual there were liquor ordered. 1 bottle of Chivas, and a jug of beer.
Knn i tot can no need to drink tonight but i was wrong...godamnit sia, kanna force to drink quite alot thnks to Ricky... Before he left, he settled all the bills for us, came in to say his good byes, and gave da jie a really big hug, after all da jie has been working under his wing for so many yrs liao. Da jie cried when ricky hugged her, the scene was very touching, can see that actually she dun really wanna leave the place one. Well da jie i hope u can find a new job soon and move on with life... i'm always here for u... =)

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Back Again

2006-07-09T11:24:00.000+08:00

At this present moment, its raining so so heavily dat i dun even dare to drive the car to send daddy to Gim Moh... Anyway let mi update some stuff bout this book out, came out on sat as usual at 9.45am, reached Singapore main land bout 10.30am. Had Mac breakfast with John, CK and Buddy, after which daddy came to pick John and mi from the Mrt station. Sent John home le den drove up to Bedok to fix a computer, haha yes my uncle's stupid computer... i cant believe it i went to fix a computer wearing my "Smart 4"
Met lao da in the afternoon to play pool, was quite a ok session i think... played rather well
After which i headed home for dinner with mummy and daddy, went over to Ubi after that to meet up with Veron and Andy to view their photos, the outcome of the photos were surprising good, stunning i shld say... feel like learning photography from that guy sia haha
It was bout 9 plus already after the photo viewing session, and i last min arranged to meet up with Da Jie to pei her go Devils with Sharon as well, so i came home to changed and left to meet them at Orchard Parade Hotel... Think i was tooooo tired, i fell aslp on the bus, and i found myself waking up at HOLLAND VILLAGE... haha i ran down the bus, cross the road and took a cab back to OPH. Devils was soooooooooooo PACKED yesterday, due to some stupid knn JC night, so we went in for awhile only, and we left the place to go for supper instead. Got to noe a new fren last night, his name was Kelvin or Calvin which ever way u spell it la, but u get my point!! Anyway he was quite a nice person, easy to tok to, quite a good choice made by Sharon haha though i dunno wad the outcome will be but... Sharon, good luck and hope things turns out well for u =)
In the end we decided to go Geylang for supper. Guess wad? We went to eat dim sum AGAIN... OMG i hav been eating dim sum for the past 1 month le lor, haha same place somemore. Sharon was complaining that she was VERY HUNGRY, and she claims that she could eat one whole pig wor... so naturally our orders were quite long lor, but when all the food came, she suddenly said that... "actually i not that hungry anymore"!! WAH stun...haha gotta finish all the food
Haha was quite funny having supper with them... really enjoyed the night. Finally had chance to hav a nice tok with da jie, asking bout her resignation, i wun say i noe totally how she feels, but breifly i noe wad she is goin through, so therefore i think quiting the job is aso good for her in some sense ba.

Sian...gotta book in real soon le...feel like AWOL again hahaha

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Why?

2006-07-03T10:14:00.000+08:00

Things happening around mi nowadays are so weird, till the extend i dun really noe how to explain it anymore... but all i noe is that i tried my best to treat u as well as i can... but wad is e repay i get? More and more cold shoulders...? cold remarks and comments...?
Think u hav ur own problem as well bothering u, so therefore i dun really noe wad is running in ur mind, but i am not blaming u for anything... as a gd fren i will still be there for u when u need mi, i juz hope things can get better soon.
Heart is in a lost state, dunno how to help, dunno wad to do and dunno wad to say... trust mi i really hope to help, if u trust mi...

..// Lu Ci Fi Ed \\..

updates

2006-07-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

Lets start from last Sunday, before my booking in...
Haha i was supposed to book in by 7.45pm at Pasir Ris one, but i was still at Esplande till bout 5 plus, only came home to get my field pack and rush off to book in liao. Must be wondering why i took so long right? or why the fuck i was at Esplande instead of at home preparing to book in right? haha thanks to my good fren, Veron. Da jie and i went over to Humble House to accompany them for their photo taking session. Belows are the pics of that day, i think the couple looks so happy... the bride was so so beautiful...the groom super yandao sia haha...
All the best to my 2 good frens in their marriage, eternal blessing for Andy and Veron!!!

Changes

2006-06-25T10:42:00.000+08:00

Isit juz me or is it that things hav changed slightly during this 2 weeks when i wasnt ard?
Find that things and people are somehow slightly diff from before le. Dun really know how to put it in words, but it juz feels weird.

Anyway, will be goin bck to camp soon le, juz wanna say some stuff to da jie before i leave.
Sis, i noe u r goin through many many bad stuff now, especially in work.Hang on till the bonus arrives lor, i think u shld change job as well... i support u
Well, now that i'm not ard most of the time, when u go chiong or wad pls be xtra careful k...
If possible cut down on the times u go chiong ba, have more time to rest... i am really worried bout u... nowadays u like got alot of things in mind like that, if not u r stonning, really hope that everything will be alright for u... i noe i told u a thousand and one time that i will always be there for u...so u shld noe it by now so i wun repeat myself... pls take good care of urself...

..// LUCiFiEd \\..

Book Out Day

2006-06-25T10:17:00.000+08:00

Since 08/06/06 i was confined in Tekong for exactly 2 weeks
Finally i manage to survive this 2 weeks of great changes in my life.
Thankfully my bunk mates are all nice ppl, all r jiao lang haha same as mi =x
So i came out on Thur, goin bck in today le, which is Sunday, gotta reach Pasir Ris by 7.45pm

Lets talk abit bout wad happen after i book out ba, i am not interested to put in my army life in my blog haha...
On thur once i got home, less than 1 hr i went out already, fetched daddy to go pick up some stuff, afterwhich met with miao at MS... talked bout many many things, i really enjoy having her company. But juz like wad she said, i myself aso noe, it will be hard to meet up in future, but i dun blame her... i juz dun wanna lose her... Mei, if u ever see this, promise mi you wun throw da ge alone to face this fucked up world k?
After meeting miao, went over orchard area to go find da jie, man zai and kiat. We went over to MU to finish the balance of our martell. Kiat wasnt in a very good mood, think has something to do with breaking up ba... Anyway didnt drink much as well, cuz i wasnt feeling well. After the drinking at MU, we heading over to River Valley for our prata supper till 4 plus den we headed home. Haha this marks the end of my Thur.

On fri, was juz walking ard bugis area and rotting at kopi bean with some good frens. Anyway met up with ying to go for my fri pool night with lao da. Da sao wanted to see my botak one... but i came late so she left first... sorry da sao... anyway Kel was there as well. So after pool i treated lao da and ying to dim sum supper. Was feeling very happy that night, like i told lao da... dunno why aso, maybe is cuz i enjoy being ard ying and lao da... can listen to them say alot alot of jiao wei one haha laugh till stomach pain ar...

On sat, Ying was nice enuff to arrange a kopi session with mi before sunday. Thanks auntie, thanks for sparing so much of ur precious time for mi... really appreciated
Had a drink and talking cock at kopi bean, suddenly we decided to go catch a movie, silent hill was our 1st choice. but the time slot didnt fit, so therefore we chose to go for a laughing show, Scary Movie 4... haha super dumb but funny show, really enjoy the show, had a good laugh, plus i had a superb company with mi, thank u auntie =)

**this is how i look like now, cute? haha i hate my hair, i need to go get a cap liao LOLX.

..// LuCiFied \\..

Pictures 2

2006-06-25T01:02:00.000+08:00

Graduation Pictures...

Pictures

2006-06-25T00:57:00.000+08:00

Here are some pics taken when i went JB...

JB Trip

2006-06-07T01:16:00.000+08:00

Today was one of the best days in my few months holiday, went over to JB with Iris, Man Zai and Da Jie in the morning. We arranged to meet up at Bugis at 10.45am, but most of us slpt late, haha so end up drag till bout 11.15am den all came. Man Zai was the first to reach, followed by mi and da jie, Iris was e last one haha cuz she over slpt end up she gotta take a cab down from her place. Went over to the bus interchange and decided to take a cab into JB as it was bout to rain. Luckily, once we got onto the cab, it started to rain like nobody's business le. Got in to JB, went to Holiday Plaza there to hav our lunch, and cuz da jie wanted to get her nails done as well... bought 3 comics dere as well cuz too cheap liao cannot dun buy =p
The 3 of us walked ard the whole damn place while waiting for da jie to finish her stuff, after which we headed down to City Square. It looks grand sia, kinda like Wisma in Singapore. We reached there bout 3.30pm shopped all the way till 5.30pm den we went to hav our dinner over at Mary Brown, afterwhich we continued to shop ard the place as we still had some money left... left the place at bout 8pm plus, headed to this weird car park place, where ppl waited to get a cab back to Singapore. Over there they hav 2 kinds of cab, one is the Malaysia cab which is only able to drop us back at bugis for 10 bucks per person. The other one is our normal Singapore Comfort cab where u can take and it will send u to ur door step, but it is not cheap i say, if i nv hear wrongly is 25 bucks SING DOLLARS per person. OMG so ex sia, so end up we took the Malaysia cab back to Bugis... Got stuck at the custom (as usual) for quite some time as there was a heavy traffic jam. Reached Bugis bout 10 plus, Iris left first to meet up with other ppl, so the remaining 3 of us went to hav dessert at Liang Seah Street. Took 63 bck with da jie after that, haha evertime i see her slp on the bus i dunno wad to say sia, she always look so so tired... haix kinda feel sad for her... so came home bout 12 plus and den i noe i need to wear a tie for tml's graduation... KNN where to find sia, at 12 plus... haha lucky i got some gd frens who did offered help. End up i am getting it from one of my good frens name Eric, aka 白目, haha it means idiot haha anyway thnks eric =)
Think this is goin to be my last post before i enter NS le ba...haix... sad

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

updates...

2006-06-06T04:36:00.000+08:00

Lets see, this might be one of the last few posts before i head in to Tekong to serve the Government. Therefore there are a few things i will like to talk bout... Lets start from the most important ones ba...

1) Driving,
Hhmm, though i got my license, i finally understand wad others mean by sit others car rather den drive ur own... Driving on the roads and parking is totally diff from wad u will ever learn during the learning stage of driving... kinda felt sian, need to brush up on the skill when i hav the time ba...

2) 造孽,
Haha must be thinking wad i mean by that 2 words ba, well recently i hav "helped" someone do something that i kinda dislike myself, well, regarding wad the matter is, i dun think is nice for mi to reveal it online, ppl who noe mi well, shld all noe it by now le haha =p

3) NS,
I'm really ok with goin in to Army this thur, i am not really afraid bout the life i will face inside. Preparing the stuff for NS is so ma fan, things r only packed like 7788... haix hope i dun leave anything out. Anyway for ppl who dunno, i will be goin in to Tekong this coming Thur, so in future, theres a need for u to contact mi, pls drop mi an sms first lor.

4) Worries,
There r still a couple of things dat i am still worried bout. One of which will be, hope dat i wun meet those "xiao ren" in camp lor, hope to meet those we i can really call my buddies ba, heard most of the time from ppl who went through National Services, Is only through BMT where u can really find good frens. Haha hope is really true ba. I told myself i shld try to control this fucked up temper of mine, dun wish to offend anyone inside my camp as well.
The most important thing or rather person will still be Da Jie,

5) Da Jie,
Though i noe u will take care of urself, but u noe mi so long le, u shld noe mi well enuff to understand that no matter wad i will still worry bout u, i noe u will be goin through alot of shit once ur leave ends, sorry really sorry dat i can be there for u to hear u complain, to hear u scold, to go crazy with u and many other things.
Hey sis i am goin in soon le wor, not much time i can spend with u anymore, i really appreciated the things u hav done for mi these past few months. The both of us hav really been through alot during this period of time, thanks for taking care of mi as well... dun worry i will always remb that i have a da jie who dotes mi so so much... sis, i dunno how to describe how important u r to mi in my heart using words, but i hope and i think u more or less noe wad things r like as well, so therefore i believe i hav no need to explain much. Right now, i only hope u will see the sun shine soon after the rainy days... dunno when u will get to see this, but sis, pls promise mi to take good care of urself whenever i am not ard k?

.. // LuCiFiEd \\ ..

Driving

2006-06-01T17:26:00.000+08:00

Hey people, i finally passed my driving le, haha thank god... almost failed lor, kanna 18 points in the end. Haha struck curb once, fail to confirm safety and turning at wrong gear were the errors dat contributed to my beautiful 18 points... haha YEAH... i can drive to Graduation Ceremony le haha =p

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Lesson learnt...

2006-05-29T03:24:00.000+08:00

Well finally got the show Da Vin Ci Code le... not a bad show, i always enjoyed shows bout religions especially toking bout Christians, haha no offense though. Anyway went to 85 for dinner, met up with irene as well, so happen to bump into weian and miao over there, so had a little chat. Miao told mi a little secret story which cannot be revealed online, after hearin the story, it starts to make mi wonder. Are ur frens really wad they are like how they project themselves in front of u? Haha i am starting to have doubts, well is not like i hav always trusted ppl ard mi 100%. It depends on who as well, ppl like Miao, Lao Da and Da Jie, of cuz i have no doubt and no secrets. I hold no secrets in front of them. Cause i noe they noe mi too well to see through when i am lying and when i am not... so there isnt a point to lie to them. So therefore ppl out there reading this entry, pls beware of the people ard u,specially those u call frens, not saying that u shldnt trust anyone... but dun trust blindly ba i guess...

Goin to JB next week with Da Jie and Iris, on the day before my Grad Ceremony, anyway i hav nothing i need to do, so i might as well go visit Johor when i still can, haha goin in to see if i can get a nice shirt for my Grad Ceremony. And the most important mission on our JB trip, is to accompany Da Jie accomplish her dream, something which she has always wanted to do. Haha but i shall stop here as it is... wun reveal too much.

Da jie, read ur blog not long ago, noe that u will be goin through tough weeks soon... sadly i wun be ard to 陪你熬过. I noe work has been rather shitty for u, but i guess u hav no choice either ba... Juz hope your rainy season will pass by soon, very very soon, and thus see the beautiful sunlight after the great thunder storm. Well, remb bout my that previous post which says that i am worried bout u after i head into Tekong? I have seen ur reply regarding this, and i hope u really can make it... juz like wad u told ur brother, i will be here, always here, whenever u feel lost or alone...dun fear, juz turn ard and u will find that i will always be at somewhere not far away from u, being there for u... This is a promise!!!

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Tired of life...Tired of everything....

2006-05-29T01:56:00.000+08:00

Tired of life,

Tired of handling all the shit in life...

Just so Tired...

How i wish i can rest...i really need one...

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

WTF...

2006-05-25T01:39:00.000+08:00

Now is like 1.37am in the blasted morning, i shld be in dream land long ago, but after much tossing and turning, i am here writing an entry. Just dunno wad got into mi today, think i woke up at the wrong side of the bed, been feeling very irritated the WHOLE day, and i mean VERY. dun ask mi why...i dunno as well, think i got PMS liao... scolded many ppl today,omg, some of them i DUNNO at all one wor. shitty? for venting my anger on the innocent ppl...haix lets see who did i scold today.

1) The counter guy at GV Tampines,
went to collect tixs for mummy and daddy for their movie using korkor's name and credit card. this dumb ass juz cannot handle 8 or more digits sia, i repeated my brother's IC number like 5 times, got so irritated with him and asked him,
Me:"wad is ur fucking prob with numbers... cant u type 81xx xxxxA in the god damn correct order, how many times do u need mi to repeat?"

2)One Indian Auntie at Tampines Mall,
Bought a pillow for kor kor, so as usual i gotta carry all the stuff... i was minding my own business and walking by the side while tokin to daddy, this stupid black dumb fuck appeared in front of mi, she refused to fark out of my way, so i juz stared at her, she scolded mi for not letting her pass, WTH right? Yes, given my temper today, i scolded her back.
Me: "Why must i let u pass? there is such a big fucking space beside mi, u blind or u too fat to pass through?"
Her:"Wah, still so rude."
Me:"Den u still wan mi to pay u respect ar? need to kneel down and apologise? ok ok i'm sorry, can u juz kindly FUCK-OFF, so i can pass?"
OK, after that i juz walked passed her by squeezing through. Jus as i tot everything came to an end, daddy scolded mi upside down for being so rude and guai lan... well i guess is juz in the blood ba... =x

3) Parents,
Had a couple of arguments with them due to many stupid little things dat juz pisses mi off,
Example:
Collecting the tixs at 6.20pm when the show is at 7.40, being afraid that the tixs will be gone.
I tried to explain to mummy that we had already BOOKED the damn tixs so it is ours... no need to worry. OMG, she juz cannot understand plain simple chinese...and insisted that we shld get it once we stepped into TM. NVM, next time i shld try telling her in Hokkien, see if it works...

Anyway conclusion, i am having PMS...dunno why aso....god damnit...

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

To you...

2006-05-22T03:14:00.000+08:00

歌曲：我知道你很难过
歌手：蔡依林 专辑：我知道你很难过

我知道你很难过
爱一个人
需要缘分
你何苦让自己
越陷越深
别傻得用你的天真去碰触不安的灵魂
每一天只能痴痴的等
爱一个人别太认真
你受伤的眼神令人心痛
没有一个人
非要另一个人
才能过一生
你又何苦逼自己
面对伤痕
我知道你很难过
感情的付出不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过昨天是恋人
今天说分说就分手
别问你的痛
要怎么解脱
多情的人注定伤得比较久
爱若变成了刺
思念也成了痴
也许心碎是爱情最美的样子

Thoughts of the day...

2006-05-21T15:05:00.000+08:00

Today is juz another fine sunday with a little rain and cooling wind blowing in through the windows of my room. Woke up at 12 plus, having nothing to do gave mi some free time to think bout many many things. Here r some tots that went through my mind. The countdown to the start of my NS life i getting nearer and nearer le, i do admit that i dun wanna go in now, not at this moment, not at this period of time. There r things and people dat i cant juz be not worried about. Yes, i admit that i'm still young, so wad rights do i hav to worry or even take care of ppl.

To me, i dun take it as taking care of her, but more of being there for her. From wad many ppl see from my past entries, seeing that i hav been goin to chiong more and more lately, is not becuz i enjoy chionging, i juz dun mind.
The most important thing is i hope to be there with her, making sure that things dun go wrong. Hoping that she will get home safely everytime after we hang out till the wee hours of the night. I noe there r many things in her heart that she dun wish to reveal, even to a close fren like me, i wun say that i understand fully wad is it that she is goin through at this very moment in life, but till a certain extend i understand the pain and suffering she is in and i am sorry for not being able to do anything to make things better. So therefore i can only find time to keep her company since i have nothing else on hand that i have to handle.

But what is goin to happen once i leave the Singapore main island?

She is the only one that i cant be not worrried bout, many people say i am thinking too much, but how many of u really noe wad she is goin through? So if u dun noe, i hope u all wun criticise wad the both of us are doing. Yes, i noe she is old enuff to take care of herself, i noe she is old enuff to noe wads wrong and right...but isit wrong to be juz worried bout a close fren, someone whom i treat as my real elder sister? I DUN THINK SO.
I noe one day she will get to see this post, sooner or later, juz wanna to tell u...
"no matter wad shit happenes in ur life, i am there for u, if u really do treat mi like a brother, cuz i long regarded u as my elder sister le."
During this period of time, u played a big role in my life as well, if it wasnt for u, life will be so much more dull den before. I appreciate all the things u hav done for mi as well, the time u spent, the concern u gave and the money that u had put in. I'm sorry at this current point in time i cant do much for u, but like wad i say once i get my pay in NS, u r the 1st person that i wun forget.
Hey sis, i really hope things will turn better for u soon, stay strong...be strong... i really dun wish to leave u at this point in time but thanks to the government i have to with no other choice. But like wad u said, i wun be goin in forever, there will be times when i do get to come back and step on the Singapore main island, when that day comes, i hope u will still hav time to entertain this "crappy", "lor soooo" and "bo liao" brother of urs.

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Music Under-Ground

2006-05-19T17:21:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was juz a normal thur for mi, till bout night time ba, haha was slping the whole day at home till 6 plus woke up had my dinner and watched some TV and headed down to OPH to meet da jie. Yes, it was thur night so it was Ladies Night over at MU, Man Zai joined us as well after his work, so we headed there to finish our Chivas. Surprised to see Jason there, cuz we wun notified before-hand, anyway with Jason was Sharon, John, John's sis Marilyn and Victoria came shortly after. Within half an hr, Sharon was laying on my shoulders liao, cuz she drank too much le, one of her fren made her drink a Martell on the rock, yucks, after her rest as usual, we started to play all the games, Dice and Direction, with Da jie, Sharon and my Shi-Fu,John. Haha got scolded by Marilyn cuz she accused me of bullying her brother John haha, WTH i was the one being bullied lor LOLX. Anyway had lots of fun last night with them, nice grp of ppl to hang ard with. Seems like i am becoming someone who goes chiong so so damn often liao, OMG... does that mean i am a chiong-ster? Haha anyway since i am not occupied with anything or anyone in life, i see no harm goin to night spots to train back my drinking level and noeing new ppl. Anyway, i finally got sabo-ed last night, remb bout the 2 entries before this i said, if Sharon is willingly to drink the water-fall den i will drink as well? Haha well, Sharon ganged up with Da Jie juz becuz both of them r gers, my god...kanna bullied... so lan lan as promised i tried the flaming Water-Fall with the 2 of them. haha wasn't that bad, not as bad as M-16 i find. But it is really kinda hot when u drink it down. Drink liao really muz rest awhile sia, if not sure faint one haha. So thanks to my darling Sharon and Da Jie dat i almost died last night. =p

This was the Water-Fall before lighted.

Kanna Sabo-ed, from left, Sharon, Me, Dajie's head haha

The 2 crazy ger who almost got me drunk.
(Dajie & Sharon)

Me and my darling Sharon haha. Was kinda high liao, thanks to her. =x

May, 17, 2006

2006-05-17T03:14:00.000+08:00

寂寞到底是什么？
是否是一种需要人陪在你身旁的一种感觉？
如果是如此，那么我是否是个寂寞的人呢？
我不否认当我生病时，我希望能有个人在我身旁照顾着我。
我不否认当我在街道上行走时，看到情侣们手拉着手，我会感到一阵凄凉。
我常对自己说，只要我对别人好一点，老天爷总会有疼我的一天。
我听人说过，人的一生，八个钟头用在睡觉上，八个钟头用在工作上，剩下的八个钟头就找个自己觉得长得还过得去，也有点喜欢的人，一起度过。
这也是我的人生的哲理，但是真的有几个人真得做得到？
我自认我的要求不高，待人也不错，只是为何总是和“她”有缘无分？
我只是想和心爱的人在沙滩手拉着手一起漫步，听着海浪，说这心事，说这各自的生活里的点点滴滴。
看来老天爷也不是那么的照顾我吧。
许多人都跟我说：“不是缘分不到，只是时辰未到”
要不然就是说：“别担心，还有朋友在你身边吗。”
我不是不知道我有好朋友在我身边，但不管如何，他们充其量也只是朋友。
你会把你的一切的心事都告诉他吗？每一个人多多少少都会有些隐瞒，有所保留。
我只希望能遇到一个能和我一起分享彼此的苦与乐的人，这个要求很过分吗？
算了吧，可能我命犯孤星，注定一人到老。
还是那句话， “一切只能随缘吧。”
所以，如果你已经找到了你的那个“她”，“他”。
请记得，好好的珍惜他。别让爱火烧尽，别让缘分走到了尽头。
有时失去了的人和事，是一辈子都挽回不了的。

大姐，感谢你在我这段人生当中扮演了个最重要的角色，陪伴我度过数不尽的风风雨雨。我真得很感激你，想对你说声 “谢谢你，我最最最最爱我的大姐！！！哈哈哈哈哈哈”

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Chiong-ing is a sin?

2006-05-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

Wad a nice Sunday it was, haha slept till 3-4pm so shiok sia... as usual went to Music Underground last night, was quite a disappointing trip, many many things happened, Da Jie lah, Jason lah, Kelvin lah, Vincent lah and even Sharon and Victoria. Da jie and i kinda regreted goin last night. But well we had nothing to do mah after watching MI-3. Anyway that show was damn nice haha dunno why aso leh, there wasnt any particular part dat i like the most, maybe juz overall nice ba... Oh now i remb something, one nice thing was Maggie Q's legs, woah...when she came out from the sports car, i bet many guys must be drooling ba haha. After watching the show, we called Wen-Wen a.k.a Man Zai... to join us at MU, if not we got no drinks dat night. So in the end Da jie, Man Zai and Jason shared one bottle of Chivas, starting was rather uncomfortable den till the back everyone were more relax liao so didnt go and think that much.
Da jie had lots of fun dancing and running around ba, haha as for mi... as usual i sat there to drink and play games, last night we didnt hav any dices, so we play a game which is similar to sissors paper stone, but i duno the name for the game. It was so so so fun, haha Sharon and John were the ones who taught mi the game, juz becuz Sharon keep losing to John so she taught mi and den ask mi to play with him, WTH right? haha
Anyway had lots of fun playing that game, anyone wanna learn? i dun mind teaching cuz is such a fun game i think all shld noe how to play LOLX.
Bout 2 plus our Chivas was gone le, so we had no more drinks liao, lucky for Sharon, her fren got her a M-16 to drink, IT SUCKS ASS MAN DAT DRINK...dunno why the guys there like it so much, Sharon and i hate it... She insisted dat both me and her shld finish the drink... so no choice, she drank half den i drank the remaining half. IT WAS SO HOT....yucks... We tot it was the end of it, GOD NOES they bought Sharon another cup of M-16, wah faint sia.
I pretend to sleep on Sharon's shoulder acting blur, haha but she juz continue hitting mi... so sian... so no choice gotta wake up lor. We didnt really wanna drink that cup, so we decided to play the game again...loser for 3 rounds will drink lor, fair mah? haha
Lucky thing Sharon drank most of it, haha sorry ar ger...
So basically means i had many diff drinks aso...lets see...
1) Chivas
2) Martell
3) M-16
haha da jie keep asking mi to drink water fall but i dun wan and i dun dare...haha but she said before i go in army muz at least try once with her...so guess i am in a quite lan lan situation LOLX...hhmm if she can convince Sharon to drink aso i dun mind trying haha at least all die together ma...hor da jie???? LOLX...

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Troubles

2006-05-12T14:34:00.000+08:00

Went to Fullerton to meet up with da jie to go hav lunch, the 2 of us were like idiot walking ard, juz to search for a food court. Haha end up when we finally found the damn place, i decided to have Mac instead. Anyway we headed to the Mac near Fullerton, had a simple spicy meal and chit chat-ed with her till we felt damn cold, as it was raining outside den. We walked out of Mac and decided to go find my dearest Lao Da, who works nearby as well. After meeting up, was asked to play pool on the night itself. I looked at Da Jie and she gave mi the go ahead look, cuz i was supposed to go chiong with her at Devils and Music-Underground one...sorry jie.
Anyway went home to rest awhile and met up with Lao Da, Da Ge and Zixing to play Guard again. haha but didnt put in alot of attention as i was kinda worried bout Da Jie cuz of the fucked up weather last night. Anyway after our game, as usual we went to Geylang for supper, was surprised when we got there... Normally will have a few gers to see one lor at least, last night was empty, i repeat, EMPTY... After dat den we noe after asking some uncle who looked like a pimp, he told us that there was a raid juz now, a police lorry came, therefore for the next week days, there wun be any gers to see liao haha. So after which we headed to eat You Tiao and drink Dou Jiang. Juz when we were bout to head home, i receieved a call, and from the ring tone, i noe from the 1st moment that it was Da Jie,
i told myself, "siao liao la, think she drunk le, need to go down fetch her and bring her home."

But when i answered the call, she sounded drunk, and was very very upset, cried a little, i told her to stay at where she was and i will rush down dere immediately, but she chose to come down to find mi instead at Geylang. After heard the whole story le, understand how she felt... but i dunno wad to say but juz be there for her.

Da jie, really sorry, sorry for not being able to accompany u... making things ended up like these...sorry... if i can ever choose again... i'll nv leave u alone anymore...never...
Sorry....

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Song

2006-05-11T19:08:00.000+08:00

歌曲：他一定很爱你

我躲在车里手握着香槟
想要给你生日的惊喜
你越走越近有两个声音
我措手不及只得楞在那里
我应该在车底不应该在车里
看到你们有多甜蜜
这样一来我也比较容易死心
给我离开的勇气
他一定很爱你
也把我比下去
分手也只用了一分钟而已
他一定很爱你
比我会讨好你
不会像我这样孩子气
为难着你
我应该在车底不应该在车里
看到你们有多甜蜜
这样一来我也比较容易死心
给我离开的勇气
他一定很爱你
也把我比下去
分手也只用了一分钟而已
他一定很爱你
比我会讨好你
不会像我这样孩子气
为难着你
他一定很爱你
也把我比下去
分手也只用了一分钟而已
他一定很爱你
比我会讨好你
不会像我这样孩子气

Hokkien Test

2006-05-08T22:09:00.000+08:00

Instructions:

1. Read the passage carefully

2. Grade yourself with the grading system at the
end of the passage
after reading.

3. Leave ur name and result by the tag board. Thanks

Section A: Orrler Exeminetion (60 marks)

Question:
Singalella why become rich ?

Koo zhar wu chee ay char bor kia, Singalella.

She got two sisters, but the stepmarder and the
sisters all damn
kuai-lan, so she quite zhia-lat oso.

Last time Singalella got own maid, but now she
become the amah.

Everyday must cook lah, clean lah, simi sai mah
bao-kah-liao.

If her sister say liak kar zhuak, she liak.

Tak jit zho kah tau-hin.

CPF poon boh.

But then, kay piak eh ah-pek got one son call Ah
Ming got party.

So he say, "oeh, long chong lai ah."

Singalella very happy because she never go party
before but then
her step-marder say, "Lee Mana eh-sai kee, this
one bahru lu eh
sisters wu standard."

Then Singalella must zho sui-sui for her sisters
and step-marder.

Tap pai how, buay zhia, buay koon and buay pang-
sai.

That night she only can wave bye bye and then
she go back to the
kitchen and cook Maggi mee.

Her neighbour came over and ask, "Eh, an-zhua lu
boh kee party?"

So Singaalella kong, "I-wan, lau-bu kong buay-sai,
so boh pian."

She never expect but the neighbour say,
"Aiyah, kee lah, I give you money."

So singalella brush teef and zhang-zhui, chen-kor,
after that look
very different.

She quickly run to opposite of the beh-chia-lor,
already 11
o'clock.

At the party, Ah Ming also quite sian because the
char bor all boh
sui one.

Dance floor even got one ah pek dancing.

Just as Ah Ming told himself, "Aiyah see-pay zhia-
lat", Singalella
came in.

Ah Ming straight away lau nuar.

"Wah-lau eh, see-pay heng ah, chee kor buay
pai."

Ah Ming say to Singalella, "eh, sui eh, wah ai kah
lee zho flen!"

Singalella say ok but Ah Ming like octopus, touch
here touch there.

But then just it was 12 o'clock, one ah pek die on
the dance floor.

He become ghost and tell Singalella all the good
4D number.

So after that Singalella quickly go and buy 4D, and
then tiok
tau-pio, zhit-pak ban.

So she pay back the kay-piak eh lau-kay-poh and
then kah kee cho
sen-lee.

Simi kuan eh sen-lee wah mana eh zhai.

Section B: Grades - Gauge Your command of
Hokkien....

A1. Can understand the story and pronounce
Hokkien correctly.

Hokkien eh sai, bo beh zao.

A2. Can understand half story and/or cannot
pronounce Hokkien
properly.

zhia lat

E8. Don't understand story and/or catch no
ball.

leow leow, mai ka lang kong you is Hokkien
Singabolean

F9. Don't understand rating.

kee see lah, wah mana eh zhai lee kong simi?

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Sins

2006-05-07T05:23:00.000+08:00

If there really is a heaven and hell, wad is considered as a sinful thing to do? wad is it dat ppl done that will land them in hell? i am kinda curious to noe... dun ask mi why juz curious... haha
Sins, are they considered as something that goes against one's moral values? or is juz define by ppl's thinking?If theres a degree on such topics, i will gladly go learn. Is someone able to teach mi?

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Realities In Life...

2006-05-03T23:32:00.000+08:00

Real Facts in Life...

more and more people are getting more and more realistic no need to mention more and more materialistic as well, no offense but mostly refering to the ladies. in order for 2 person's relationship to work,

both muz first consider if they can imagine a future with each other...

imagine whether it will still be the same feeling after 5 yrs down e road and the person slping beside u is "him" or "her"...

following will be considering if ur partner (mostly refering to gers, no offense again. ^-^ ) is able to provide u with the living and the things u will ever wan in life.

does ur partner earn enough? will he or she be sacked from their jobs? will we have enuff savings even if till the time when there r kids in the family?

All these are some typical questions ppl will think about before getting in to a serious relationship. Dun u think when we were younger, such things wun a bother to us? The only thing that matter to us back den will be...
This ger chio enuff?
That guy cute or yan dao enuff bo?

Now, as we get older, we start to realised the importance of saving. Everything in life needs money, if u have no money...how the hell are u goin to marry ur love one? how r u goin to buy a house for living? and if so...lets not tok bout cars if house is already a problem.
I starting to understand why gers in Singapore are so persistent about the 5"C"s now... is not cuz they want it to be like that but more of they hav no choice not to be like that. Its is the only thing to ensure their's or their kid's future survival... Life's Cruel? ahhh get used to it...it has always been. hahahahaha

For myself, did "u" and i encountered one of the problems i mentioned above? Not being able to see a future together with mi? well... dats a pity, i nv blame anyone, not u, not fate and of cuz not myself, cuz i believe strongly dat i did wad i could to try and fight u back. But evenutally i failed. So guess i still will have to face this cruel and cold world alone... Living to pass day by day is now my only target and hope in life... Life suxs... i HATE it so much... I DETEST LIFE, MYSELF and of cuz not forgetting... "YOU"...
Haha wondering who "you" is?
Pls stay tune to next weeks epi of....
arghz crapz...dun worry...it might be u... it might not be as well... hahaha

..// LuCiFieD \\..

Updates and Updates and more updates...

2006-04-30T06:16:00.000+08:00

Been kinda bz this couple of days, didnt really hav the mood to write something as well,
hhmm... lets see, lets start from yesterday ba, went to have Dim Sum lunch with da jie's family. Its her mum's birthday, and i had the honour to tag along for the meal LOLX. The food was good i muz say, cheap too, due to some reasons... haha anyway went shopping with them after which, see da jie bought many things haha was like her birthday sia, juz keep buying and buying... haha but i noe she juz wanna pamper herself for the hard week she has been through. Hey jie, u deserve it...really, though there r times i might ask u not to buy, its all cuz i find it is either not worth it or simply juz not nice. had alot of fun walking ard with them in the super market, was as if singapore was goin in to war sia, can u imagine we had 2 trolleys wor.... haha after that we headed back to da jie's home to unload the stuff and den headed to parkway to continue the shopping spree. da jie bought some more stuff over at the isetan in parkway parade. haha the thing is that i didnt grew sian of seeing her shop, pls la... i am well trained one ok? seeing her try those clothes and giv comments was fun... haha anyway played pool after all the shopping was done cuz xian wanted to play. think he will never wanna play pool with mi anymore ba?? hahahaha
After which the night ended simply with mi meeting up with lao da for our usual pool night.

As for today, it was Andy's birthday, so met up with Ying, Zhihui, Haide at Marine Parade and then took Yong Hoe's car over to the chalet for the celebration. Met alvan, zhihong they all there as well, had alot of crappy jokes making us laugh till stomach cramp ar. Left with Ying not long after the cake cutting, she was rushing to Double-O and i gotta rush down to meet Lao Da to play pool AGAIN tonight. So the night ended with mi playing pool and having supper with lao da.

This following part is for my Da Jie,
Hey ger, juz read ur blog, understand wad u r goin through, aso noe that its kinda tough for u especially at times when u r sick. It feels terrible to noe that u r alone when u need someone by ur side. i understand how it feels...Anyway is not that i dun wanna say much, but cuz i dun think i am in any position to say anything. i noe u and "him" had lots and lots of fond memories, letting it go is hard, forgetting is even harder. i'm happy enuff to see that at least my company can help u the least bit. think thats the only thing i can do for u le...hey trust mi i really love u alot as a sister, i dun wanna see u get hurt or wad so ever, i hope i can be there for u at times when u need someone. Stay strong, be strong. I always believe that time heals all wounds, though it might leave a scar but at least it wun hurt as much as when the injury was inflicted on u. Call mi if theres anything u need k? Dun think ur this god brother bochup u one wor...

Next, will be my own stuff, after reading da jie's blog made mi think bout many many stuff. Stuff related to "her"... sometimes i think to myself, wun it be a good thing if i were to hav a chance to take care of u when u r sick... well is juz a "think" so therefore means that it didnt happen before. Did think bout "you" recently...really trying hard to walk out of the dead end i am in now currently... slowly, but i do see progress.

..// LuCiFiEd\\ ..

Esthi Bar

2006-04-28T02:38:00.000+08:00

Lets see... juz got home from Esthi, a new place dat i gone today. Live band was superb. Only one bad thing, the sound system was too stomp le... canot take it sia, drank till now feeling abit drunk. normally wun like that one leh, dunno why today so easy feel giddy le, maybe is cuz i juz recover from the stupid weather sickness ba. Anyway took a pic with da jie there, will be updated later. Today was quite a boring day anyway, been rotting at home the whole morning and afternoon. Only went out in the night, went to meet da jie, kiat and iris to have our dinner at Bedok 85, after which went down to esthi to continue our night le. Nothing much to update anyway, so think i shall juz stop here ba, need to go sleep liao, tml need to wake up early to go eat dim sum with da jie and her mum. haha so shall sign off here, take care peepz. CheeRzzz

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Taiwan Trip

2006-04-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl, i'm bck from taiwan le, FINALLY.
Lets see... all i did during this trip was walking around looking at rocks, moutains, caves and seas. Was kinda boring but evenutally the group of ppl got more happenin towards the end, so things wun that bad. Tried many special food there, shopping and did many funny stuff there as well like playing pool.
Playing pool is quite normal for mi, but got ger to accompany u to play is rather new to many ppl ba? haha well i finally got the chance to experience it le. She was called "小玲". Her skills were rather good for someone who only played 4-5 months. compared to her i felt so useless cuz i hav been playing pool for bout 5 yrs le, yet i find that winning her is something difficult. Her stunts, her placing and her accuracy were things that surprised mi. Had quite a good learning exp, took a photo with her as well to let mi remb bout my first opponent in Taiwan.

She not exactly a chio bu, but she was very cute and nice. Nice to the extend, let mi win few racks, felt so useless. so i promised myself that i will come back and start training back my old skills.

Didnt do much over there as well, mostly was juz sight seeing lor and shopping. Shopping at Xi-Men-Ding was quite fun too took a pic with the cute sales ger while shopping for Miao's present haha i know i shouldnt be doin that haha but...heck la...she cute. LOLX

Well think theres nothin much else to show ba, unless u guys wanna see wad i ate and photos with my parents haha. so think i shall end here ba. Take care peepz.

..// LuCiFiEd\\..

Boring Tour

2006-04-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

Hi peepz, i'm now currently logging in from an internet cafe in Gao Xiong
now lets tok bit bout the tour i am currently in now, few words to describe it only. "FUCK UP"
nothing much to do one sia, except everyday go for those stupid cb culture tour. KNN waste my time sia.
But thank god our singapore tour guide is a very nice person, brought us ard to shop and buy things at night.
i believe all of us hav the misconception that Taiwan has good food ba...
Let mi tell u all something u r wrong...so freaking wrong.
been here for a couple of days le had nothing but shitty food. but there are aso some that r NOT so bad one will post some of the pics and update on more stuff when i get back HOME...
I MISS HOME...
I MISS MEI...
I MISS DA JIE...
I MISS BUBBLES...
I MISS YING...

home:
i miss my bed, my comp, val, cancan and my brother...

mei:
i miss seeing u hearing u tok cock with mi. so sian now here without anyone of u...i'm worried bout "daddy" as well...will go bck and see him as soon as i get bck home.

da jie:
da jie i miss ur crappy rubbish...i miss ur shouting...i miss goin to chiong with u...anyway i noe u r goin through some hard times due to WGS...but bear with it... if i remb correctly it ends tml right? hang on...take care will come home to hear u complaint soon.

bubbles:
my dear bubbles, i noe u r having ur exams now...i wish u all the best for everything, i cant be there to support u, i apologise...but mentally i will still be there for u...good luck and all the best...i hope to hear good news when i get bck.

ying:
hey ger i miss having lunch with u at maxwell...remb wad i told u before i left...i really feel it now already leh, even though is juz a week. i really cant imagine when i go into NS...well will catch up with u soon...i really miss u too =p

..// LuCiFiEd \\..

Devils Trip

2006-04-16T04:12:00.000+08:00

Oh my, oh my, feeling abit high now...haha juz got back home from Devils Bar, tonight was the birthday of our dearest "姥姥" so went with da jie to celebrate with her. Before that went down to Chua Chu Kang to celebrate da jie's little niece's birthday. had quite a heavy yet late dinner. took LRT for the god damn 1st time as well tonight... i sound like a mountain turtle, but thats the truth. haha after which we headed down to Devils, starting that time felt kinda out of place, cuz i am the YOUNGEST there lolx.
Later part was better after da jie's fren "huili" came, joined them at their table which had one bottle of Chivas. well da jie intro-ed mi to Huili as her god brother, and huili was da jie's "mummy", so as her god brother, i was forced to call her Mummy as well... haha for no reason tonight i suddenly got a mummy haha. Her starting sentence to me was asking mi to drink half cup of my Chivas-Green tea. haha she is a very steady ger, and one thing is for sure... she is a GOD DAMN FREAKING good dancer... i heard that Devils really got no one that can win her. She is juz fantastic on the bar top with the pole. This i gotta admit, SHE IS GOOD!!!!
Left the place bout 3 plus, met "mummy" and "daddy" 's car outside, so they were kind enuff to send us back. OMG "daddy" & "mummy" tot i was 25 -26 yrs old sia, do i really look so old?
They were aso asking if i am really juz her "god-brother" or her suitor, haha WTH haha "
Too bad wasnt prepared to take photos. Anyway gotta thank da jie and her mummy & her bf who were kind enuff to sent us. so i'm here typing... well kinda tired le so think i will stop here ba,,, = Night Night peppz.

..// LuCiFied \\..

Pictures of Music Underground

2006-04-15T03:34:00.000+08:00

Below are the photos at MuSiC UnDeR-GrOunD as promised ^^V

Music Underground Part 2

2006-04-14T04:39:00.000+08:00

Juz got home from Music Underground, yes the 2nd time i been there le, my god that place is so "techno" sometimes really cant stand it, too "stum stum" sia.
Anyway, lets start blogging bout my day, was supposed to meet at 8pm one, cuz da jie got work. but was changed to 9pm due to some things which happened in the restaurant. Left OPH with da jie at 9pm, went down to Mid Point food court to meet up with Veron to have dinner. Ying was supposed to meet us at 9pm as well, but SOMEBODY fell aslp at home...haha end up meeting us late. Saw Kelvin Tan, my Shi-Gong, juz out side the food court, we talked abit of cock and den Ying came. Went into MU at bout 10-11 plus, saw da jie's fren Vincent, Marvin(dunno how to spell la), and his gf, who's name if i nv remb wrongly shld be call Jia-Ling.
Before we met, i heard bout her already, heard that she looked like Ayumi, so Ying and i were quite eager to see her real person, ended up kinda disappointed, she is pretty i dun deny, but far from Ayumi ba... no offense... haha
Well, lets continue, the night was full of Techno music, so it was kinda boring for Veron, Ying and i, due to boredom it led to mi goin to play pool and mega touch. R&B started playing at bout 1am, thats when u see life in the crowd, haha
The table beside ours got into some conflict which leaded to a quarrel and we "think" we heard them mentioning their gang names. OMG i pulled Ying back cuz i was afraid they might hit her, was prepared to shelter her if there really was a fight. The smaller sized guy got pulled out in the end, and i think it ended out with him juz being SLAPPED, and so the issue ended. Kinda childish i find... haix... hhmm dat sounds like something i will do when i was back in 15 or 16. Anyway that table beside us were SO SO SO beng sia, shouted gang cheers with the music. Gang cheers, how long has it been since i last heard it sia? OMG... Old Skool Ah Bengs leh haha
((("Yo ah yo, yo ah yo, mai yo jiu mai yo, ai yo jiu ga ga yo... ")))
Omg thats juz so OLD SKOOL... anyway drank quite little tonight so there wasnt any vomit incident, plus i am super sober enuff to sit infront of my comp typing all such rubbish haha
Sent Ying home on cab before i got home myself, Veron called and jio mi tml MORNING go cycling sia, wth, think sure not enuff slp one lor... still wan mi to wake her up at 9am, wonder if it is possible bo? haha anyway photos of our MU trip will be uploaded soon, as soon as da jie comes over to my place... haha so therefore think i will sign off here and go look for 周公 to go play chess liao. Take Care Peepz...

Enough of chiong-ing le, now for personal stuff, everytime seeing u in this state, it hurts mi deep down, seeing the change in u yet there's nothing i can do as well, but only let u be the way u wanna be. Was told to 看开点... so no choice ba LPPL...LL SUCK THUMB lor...haix... hope things will change soon.

This will be dedicated to my best brother Justin, hey bro, juz had a little chat with u on msn, sorry bout my msn lagginess, really dunno why i cant get the reply, so so fucked up sia, anywayz hope things r really alright for u, though i dun really noe wads bothering u, but u shld noe when u need someone, u can juz msg or call mi. Wad are bros for man ? Will always be here when u need someone. Read ur blog, read that post too, felt so funny come to think of it, life is juz purely sucky la think both u and i noe that by now. But dun worry, no matter wad, we hav each other to guai lan till the end k brother ? HAHA
..// LuCiFiYiNg \\..

What's ur meaning of life?

2006-04-11T22:47:00.000+08:00

Hhmm... lets see, how shld i start?
K, juz got home from town area, met up with Da jie and Veron for dinner today, before that we went to Carefour to do some shopping. Cuz easter is coming, so Veron gotta help to buy Chocolates for her company. Bought hell alot of things, before we went to the restaurant at Istana Park for our dinner. The place is damn nice, the only bad thing u guys can expect might be juz the service ba, its not bad, but juz very very slow...
Chit-Chated during dinner, and we came across the topic of "Abortion"... dun ask mi why... haha
Anyway i wonder wad r ur views bout this, wads ur meaning of "Life"?
They were telling mi stories bout their fren, which included a part that consisted of the topic "abortion"... i juz dunno why i am kinda disturbed by the idea of hearing ppl goin through abortion.
Veron said something that made sense too, if u do not have the income to maintain a family and a kid, giving birth to the kid, wun it result in being a "Tragedy"?
I totally understand wad she was trying to tell mi... but my concept was that, if say such things really happened, no matter wad both parties shld bear the responsibility of bringing the child safely to this "WONDERFUL" world. by goin through abortion, u r killing a life, it has not much difference with murder. No matter how old the being is, it is still a living being. Do u really hav the right to deny his or her chance to come see the world?
To me, it is aso a very sinful thing, and i believe karma will really fall upon the both parties if any harsh or rush decisions are made. Juz imagine if there is really a heaven and hell after we die, do u think by doin such a thing u will go heaven? do u dare to say that u hav done nothing wrong?
I find that sometimes my thinking juz doesnt click with the modern world, many things happening in modern society, to me, i find that is very sinful or rather, a MISTAKE. i'm not saying that i am a "saint". i have done things wrong myself as well, i wun deny bout it. think i am juz more suitable to live in the oldern ages ba...
What are ur point of view bout "Abortion"??
Really hope to see diff prospective in life... pls enlighten mi.... ANYONE??

... // LuCiFiEd \\ ...

What A Day...

2006-04-08T06:24:00.000+08:00

Yes, is 6 plus AM in the early morning and i juz got home. Had a busy day today, busy but yet fun haha. Well lets start from this morning, hhmm i was slping so nothing much. Haha Afternoon, went to Tan Tock Seng to visit "daddy", he seems alot better den a week ago, thank god for that. He is able to recognise ppl already, ppl like miao and "mummy". But he said he noes who am i, guess wad he said?
"ya i remember, he is the one who sells fruits one mah."
Wah kaoz, blurzzz haha anyway he is able to response and tok to us, so we r more relief. There is this superb senior staff nurse who is in charge of his case, she will update us bout his conditions EVERYTIME when we first got to the ward. Best Senior Nurse i seen so far, the other one will be this nurse by the name of "Shirley Tan". She is a nurse there who took care of "daddy" as well, kinda cute too. =p
Anyway she is the prettiest i can find in the ward, well u noe wad they say,
"When there is no fish, prawns will do."
LOLX =p
We even saw this patient who was quite young juz laying opp "daddy", trying to "kao" her, wah liew so low class sia, trying to jio gers even when he is laying in the damn hospital.
After that went to Tiong Bahru to meet Ying for our frequent "KOPI SESSION". Talked to her bout many things including things which happened juz days ago, got many conclusions and new point of views in the ger's prospective. Starting to understand wad went wrong, well maybe wad is meant to be will always be, wad is never meant to be will NEVER be. Thanks, felt alot better after toking to u, even though the things u told mi were kinda cruel, but yet realistic.
As it was a Friday night, so Lao Da dropped mi a sms to ask bout pool session tonight, went down together with Ying to meet her "Shi Gong", sorry auntie, i know u were tired, but u still chose to keep mi company, thankful to hav a great pal like u. LuV u LOTSSSS haha
Tonight's game was good for all three of us, played better than usual dunno for wad reasons aso. But manage to win Lao Da by clearing him on the 2nd cue, i was stunned and shocked when i finished the game. Played quite well, quite impressed with myself, LOLX...
For Ying, will be a bit more sad la, she kinda break clear by her own "shi gong". Sad Ar? =p
Went for supper after our pool session, at Geylang as usual, love the food there. After which went to see see look look, jialan jialan ard the place and den headed home to bathe and download movies. Haha anyway take care peepz =)

..// LuCiFyInG \\..

CoZ oF YoU

2006-04-07T00:20:00.000+08:00

Because Of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break, the way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far

(chorus)
Because of you I never strayed too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust, not only me,
but everyone around me, Because of you, I am afraid

I lose my way, and its not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry, because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can�t possibly break, when it wasn�t even whole to start with

(chorus)

I watched you die, I heard you cry, every night in your sleep.
I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me.
You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain.
And now I cry in the middle of the night, doin the same damn thing

(chorus)
Because of you I never strayed too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you I'm ashamed of my life, because its empty
Because of you, I am afraid

Because of you...
Because of you...

*** Starting to understand wad mei means by no one understands how fucked up life can be... now i TOTALLY agree... it suxs to the extend whereby i really dun see anyone who understands wad pain and suffering i'm goin through now... KILL ME TOO BA ... if thats wad god wans ***

...// LuCiFiEd \\...

I'll will survive

2006-04-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

A boring day...
Da jie was supposed to come over to study so i didnt go over for visiting. but she went home to take a "NAP" after her driving, which was like 10 plus when she got home, guess wad time i manage to find her? 4.00PM...OMG she havent revised for her paper lor, feel like burning her hair with a lighter sia. haha
Anyway recently things aint exactly goin the way i planned or rather i hope it to be.
But dun worry i will survive, actually i kinda expected the outcome to be so, juz hoping i was wrong.but everything did come true. i dun need ppl to tell mi how to lead my life, so dun worry i wun collapse and die. Juz finished watching "Coyote Ugly"... heard the song "I Will Survive"... told myself that i muz survive too... no matter wad...
So thanks to the ppl who r concern, but i will pass this stage ALONE...dun need to teach mi wad to do, i have my own ways to survive, be it good or bad...

...// LuCiFieD \\...

缘分

2006-04-06T11:59:00.000+08:00

缘份缘份，

人生当中会遇到各种各样的人，

两个陌生的人能相识是种缘，

这两人能否在一起就得看他俩是否有这个福份了。

相识是缘，

相聚是份，

能白头偕老才算是种缘份。。。

只可惜我和你可能真的是有缘无份吧

Why?

2006-04-06T11:18:00.000+08:00

Slept kinda late last night, but surprisly woke up quite early today. when i opened my eyes the 1st thing i saw was the early morning sun shine which i havent seen in ages, well at least not that i notice la. Anyway after last night, seems like all effort wasnt enough, all love were shattered. Not enough in the sense that i cant change the way she think.
perhaps i am juz not the key to her lock hidden deep in the heart.
I tried my best to get her bck, i really did.
but why muz things end up like this?
IS THIS WAD THEY CALL KARMA?????
if it is so, i think i deserve it den, i am a bad person, i juz deserve to burn and die in hell
I told myself to take things easy, if it is mine it will be. but is really not that easy to do that. no matter when, no matter wad somehow or other, u r always in my mind. i dunno why u made such a deep impact in my life? all i noe is by leaving u took part of mi away too, i really do need u. but seems like on ur side u dun really someone to be there for u. i believe words can no longer change the way u think, so i am really at a lost now. i dun deny that i'm sad now, i dun deny that tears r rolling down while i am typing this. Mum keep asking what happened? cuz i seem to be in a bad mood, didnt tell her anything, find it pointless to tell anyone, is there anyone out there who understands how i feel?

...// LuCiFieD \\...

updates...

2006-04-06T02:09:00.000+08:00

been sometime since i last posted something.
following r some updates...
- things r turning better le, hope will get well and recover soon.
- congrats to HanHan for getting her long waited driving license, hope i can get mine soon aso =)
- received a love letter from the Government, CMPB, YES!!! is my dear enlistment letter... for ppl who dunno yet i will be goin in to Tekong soon... exactly when i wun post, so dun bother asking, when u notice that i not online for a long period of time liao den i think that will be it.
- been thinking alot about her lately, hope for things to work, a 2nd chance perhaps.

...// LuCiFiEd \\...

Read & Understand...

2006-04-03T02:44:00.000+08:00

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true.
LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident...

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver
medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

Pray...

2006-04-02T02:39:00.000+08:00

Pray that "Daddy" will get well soon...
I really hope for him to be like before...
Will be praying hard for him...
Stay Strong!!!

Cry

2006-03-28T01:43:00.000+08:00

Went to meet my dearest consultant again today, met with a miscommunication problem recently that made some ppl ard mi suffer. But thank goodness everything was a false alarm, if not i really will start to pull hair liao, haha of cuz not my own la...well now at home doin nothing, heard this old song on my playlist which i find it aso quite meaniful, will like to share it with everyone.

以前我看到朋友哭
我很羡慕
可是我怎么逗我自己
怎么逗我自己
我的眼泪都流不出
总觉得能够哭的朋友都很幸福
能够把满腔的无奈满腔的痛苦让泪水带走

最后是泪水啃在心头流不出
就像要爱却不懂怎么去爱
自己哭过后才明白
流过泪的眼睛将生命看得更清楚

只有真正懂得付出的人才懂得何为哭为何哭
再坚强的心偶尔也会脆弱
心会痛
心也会感动
只有曾经真心付出的人才懂得何为哭为何哭
泪水要记得为真心保留
眼泪别白白地流

...// LuCiFiEd \\...

Pictures Update

2006-03-27T01:46:00.000+08:00

Here are the Pictures as promised...

(** Me & Ying in MU**)
(** I love this pic **)

(** Me & Ying in MU, Look so Fierce hor? **)
(** But i love this pic too **)

(** Me & Ying in "Desire" **)

(** Great Pals, Me, Ying, Da Jie in "Desire" **)

(** Me & Dearest Da Jie in "Desire" **)

(** Me & Dearest Da Jie in MU **)

(** Me & Ying in "Desire" **)
( * i look like her back spirit hor? *)

(** Me & Dearest Da Jie in "Desire" **)

(** Me & Dearest Da Jie in MU **)

(** Me & Veron in "Desire" **)

Recent Updates

2006-03-26T15:36:00.000+08:00

Hey people, been sometime since i updated my blog. Received complaints about lousy english written in my blog =p Anyway will try my best to brush up my english skills then.

Lets see there are just a couple of things which i will like to update about.
1) Visit to Music Underground
2) Han's 21st birthday chalet
3) Altivo Trip

Firstly, the Music Underground (MU) trip was on Thurs. Met up with Veron, Ying and Da Jie at Clark Quay for dinner before going to find a place to rot and drink. Had Macdonalds for dinner, and headed over to this place called "Desire", nice name, thats all. The place was kinda boring, the tracks they played are like so limited and they dun even have dices to play "bluff" only cards for us to play "Dai Di". As it was a Thur so our Veron jie jie gotta work on Fri so she suggested that she leave early, at about 12.30am. Da jie was kinda sian when she heard it, cuz she promised Veron to go over to stay that very night one but she didnt want to head home so early. So... she decided to go over to MU to continue the night, she jio-ed mi and ying to go with her, as it was ladies night as well over there, there wasnt a need for ying to pay cover plus da jie fren "Adrian" can sign mi in, so no cover charge as well. Veron wasnt very happy bout the arrangement, sause she thought da jie will follow her back, so there was a LITTLE argument bout this problem, which i dun intend to talk much about.
What's passed cannot be changed, so... f*ck it...
Got to MU that time, didnt wanna drink one, so intend to pei ying and da jie throughout the night only. God noes our dearest 2 ladies won 1 bottle of Martell and a $188 cash voucher in the Lucky Draw. (*though it was a pre-set lucky draw, but still need luck to win the prizes though*) So we open the Martell which Ying won that night, drank and drank while playing dices, dancing and of cause, playing pool!!! Was quite a happy night, but juz drank abit too much though, left the place at 3.30Am. Sent Ying home first, on the way to her home, she vomited, thanks to the Chicken Wing we ate in MU, haha shortly after she got off the cab, it was my turn to vomit. Felt better after vomitting though i noe is harmful to the body. Too bad...

Secondly, Han's 21st Birthday Chalet.
They planned a dinner at Geylang to eat dim sum, and headed over to the chalet to play mahjong overnight, didnt really played much though. Played a game, lost bout bucks to Alex. They started to play card games after which. I didnt hav much interest in cards so i juz skipped, i went to watch TV and talked to bubbles for awhile on the phone. Complained to her bout how sucky everything was. haha
Anyway after the card game, Alex went to slp. They intended to play another round of mahjong, so i was dragged in to play. Left the place with Alex at 11 plus in the morning. Got home at 12Pm. The actual celebration was supposed to be on Sat. But i was meeting Ailing, so i tot maybe bring her down for the chalet and den head down to Altivo one.

Thirdly, Trip to Altivo.
Met her at 8pm at Bedok, went for a light dinner with my parents before that, didnt really have the mood to eat. As the both of us were bo liao so we decided to go to Altivo. Took a train down to Tiong Bahru, saw a ger which look like "Auntie" across the road, was kind of surprised, i wanted to shout over le, but after seeing carefully i know i saw the wrong person liao. Got a cab and headed up to Altivo. She was very excited, cause she didnt have a chance to go before. We took some pictures which will be updated later. Chit-chated for awhile and headed home le.

And as for today, now i am sitting in front of the comp, rotting, nothing much on today, juz waiting for 7pm, wait for da jie to come over to find mi tok cock sing song. Hhmm... think thats all i hav le ba... will update with pics again soon... take care ppl... byebye

...// LuCiFieD \\...

Boring Day

2006-03-22T01:51:00.000+08:00

Woke up by mummy at 8.30am today, to go to temple to pray. OMG so freaking early, when i left house my eyes were still half closed. haha after temple visit i was so happy when heading home, cuz i can continue my beauty slp. but da jie called mi and said she took MC today and wanna come over to my place to do her work. didnt noe she needed floopy drive cuz my comp dun hav lolx. sorry da jie. anyway she did some file transfer and downloads with her phone and my comp AS USUAL... so i didnt slp, stayed up to pei her do her things. hands were kinda itchy for mahjong anyway mummy was home. but we were short of one leg, so juz nice i was msging bubbles. so i asked her to come over after her sch. da jie stayed over for dinner, so i decided to cook pasta for her and the family. so the both of us headed to NTUC to get our stuff. met bubbles at home den we started the long waited mahjong game. but played till 南风 only, was feeling hungry and bubbles needed to leave le... so mummy said juz leave it lor anyway was juz for fun. Cooked pasta and had lots of fun haha with da jie and i screaming ard haha loved the atmosphere. anyway before bubbles left we packed some food and cake from mummy's birthday and ask her to pass to mei. da jie left not long after as well. wanted to go kopi bean and study but i fell aslp when she was doin some things on my comp. when i woke up she told mi nvm la she ask mi go back to slp den she go back home to study haha sorry da jie really sorry. but i felt real bad so i woke up and call her to come bck, but she insisted that i shld go bck to slp. but by den i was wide awake le... was feeling bored too... so called auntie to see where she was. wanna see her cuz she got a job interview tml. so went to meet her instead in town for shopping haha see her try her formal wears. some designs were quite nice, but when wear liao was kinda weird, i nv felt this before when shopping with auntie one, normally wad she try can make my mouth drop one lor... but dunno why today like that... haha and there was a little secret funny thing that i told her, something related to Africa one lolx... think of it i feel like laughing. but i think she will kill mi if i reveal it. so too bad... haha by the time we met up was bout shop closing time for sun tec. so we headed to bugis village. on the way told her got the feeling will meet mei they all as they were at bugis as well. god noes we really met them at TCC there lolx. when we reached bugis village aso nothing much left le. so we went rochor to eat tou hua... and tok till very happy haha tok bout many things, tok till we almost forgot the time. 11pm we left there and headed back to redhill. after which den i came home on a super long 63 bus ride. had a good slp on the bus. dreamt of something very funny as well which has her inside. well anyway found my mahjong game downstairs after the reminders by bubbles. so now i am goin to play the game liao so think will end here le ba... haha ta ta~ take care ppl =)

Problems...

2006-03-21T02:56:00.001+08:00

Juz finished reading my brother Justin's blog, saw one of his old entry which is bout the same as how i am feeling now... i am surrounded with nothing but problems as well. and they are problems whereby it cant be solved or forget by juz goin out to take some fresh air. I hate myself, sometimes is really not good to noe too many things, but humans by nature r juz curious animals. Now u noe why they say "Curosity Killed the Cat"?...
Anyway Bro...take care man, both of us got many problems dat can be solved easily. but as usual i noe we both will stand by each other in times where by if we really need help...

Hope i wun be piled to death with all the PROBLEMS i hav in life now. I DUN WISH TO HAV ANY MORE PROBLEMS. i really had enuff of all the shit nowadays, i noe i am not the only one suffering in this world, but it still hurts being ONE of them. Is only when i slp, can all problems be nothing to me. but like wad justin said, waking up is still the same, we will still be bothered by it.

- I hate myself
- I hate problems
- MOST IMPORTANTLY..... I HATE U!!!!

Dun worry i wun ask for GOD to show mi a way,as all of u noe, i nv believed in GOD.
But still i hope someone will be there to show mi a path, bring mi light instead of this total darkness i am in now. Lead mi out of it... i really need someone....

...// LuCiFieD \\...

Mummy's Birthday

2006-03-21T02:29:00.000+08:00

Hhmm today or rather yesterday was mummy's birthday, planned to eat at TPY's sakura, had no choice the "birthday auntie" wanted it, she asked mi to call along my meimei and da jie haha whole family gathering leh. Daddy, Mummy, Korkor, Kor's gf(dunno how to spell her name though), me, Miao aka meimei and Tracey Kailing aka Da Jie. Hhmm but was kinda sad bout one thing... there was one person short, one person who used to be present on all my family function. She's far away from Singapore at this present moment. i miss u.
Anyway met Mei at suntec cuz she wanted to go for the food fair, and we planned to get mummy a photo album anyway for her birthday. Her bus was kinda long in terms of waiting time, so i waited for awhile, went to walk ard the place and many funny and sad memories came into my mind. Well mei came not long after, met her at the bus stop outside the convention centre den we headed to the food fair and we found out actually both of us hav not much money with us LOLX so we had to go draw, so we might as well go buy the present first. bought the photo album liao and we headed back to the fair again, not as much ppl as sat when i first went. Bought some food like the:
- Curry Tofu & Fishball
- Japanese Pizza
- Tang Yuan
- Dim Sum
- Soya Bean Drink

Wanted to buy the icy dessert from Ice Monster one but time didnt allowed us to. Met Evelyn and her bf in the fair aso lolx...
Anyway after having our food, we headed out to get a cab down to TPY. As i told mei, it wasnt easy to get a cab, but she didnt believe, and it DID came true. was kinda pissed with the taxi uncle, like got attitude problem one leh haha
While waiting for the cab, mummy and daddy keep calling but i didnt ans, was afraid to tell them "I STILL AT SUN TEC..." haha we reached there bout 7.40pm
They were like having their desserts liao haha *oops* haha as if i really care, da jie came shortly after we arrived, had lots of food and FRUITS (thnks to someone hor!!!)
But korkor and his gf seems sian and like very buay song so i told mummy to leave first lor since they not eating le. After we had our dinner, we were wondering bout wad to do for the night. And guess wad? There was a K-Box juz beside Sakura haha so we juz MIGHT AS WELL... haha
Da Jie and i was like kinda sick with flu, nose was blocked so voice abit weird weird de. So da jie sang many Male Singers song instead. Didnt really sing much, but was fun, i juz love hanging round the 2 of my best frens in my life... Mei & Da Jie i love u 2!!! haha
Sang till bout 1 plus, they told us that it was the last song liao but mi and mei didnt expect them to stop the song halfway while mei was singing haha
Afterwhich, we took a cab back, as usual like last night, the cab went to three places... dropped miao at her place den da jie's den lastly myself. So now i am sitting in front of the comp stonning and rotting waiting for hair to dry and SOMEONE to msg mi on msn. Anyway dunno wad plans i hav for tml sia, so bored. think i will head over to my creator/consultant/song server/video providers home to get more shows to watch at home. i rather hide at home and rot liao nowadays. Hhhmmm think thats all i gotta say ba... signing off to bed soon... tata ppl take care =)

Am i Wrong?

2006-03-20T14:48:00.000+08:00

Well juz woke up not long ago, bout 2pm in the late afternoons ba, mummy juz came home dunno from where. she came to my room, and den walk aways silently, of cuz when i saw her i called her lor, but there was no response. after she came out from her room after changing i tried to call her again. she juz said,
"why u bother calling anyway this is juz a hotel to u ma, we r not ur family ma, so wad for call mi leh?"
Yes i admit i hav been coming home late almost everynight recently, SO?
Is juz that my lifestyle and theirs is diff wad... am i wrong?
They work in the day sleep at night.
My case i sleep in the day, and goes out only at night. thats becuz pratically ALL my frens are like that, so am i really at fault?
Aiyah fuck it la i hav lost the strength and energy to try to convince them wad i am doin is not wrong...

一言惊醒梦中人

2006-03-20T02:57:00.000+08:00

Tonight i went to meet my consultant (someone who actually is thinking of charging mi for giving mi advises, i hate u bleahx =p ), anyway told her bout ALL the problems i am suffering from. haix thank goodness theres her ard, many things were a dead knot till her advises solved everything... well not really everything la, but most. Thanks auntie luv u so so so much =p
One of the problem was the LIAR problem, after knowing such ppl exsist, my heart really feel cold bout many things lor. but wad she said made sense as well, indeed the world needs such ppl ard in order for the globe to continue spinning, if theres no bad ppl, how to show that we r the good ones? make sense right? haha i love the way she think and say things.
The other problems cannot be disclosed on the blog... cuz it involves some personal and other ppl's personal matters so i apologised. one of the many useful advises i got tonight was that
::(" 就算他是你亲生的, 你也没可能照顾他一辈子的, 始终有要放手的一天, 让他自己出去闯一闯")::
many things i starting to learn to let go... or rather giv and take. i noe there r many problems so for the happiness u worth earning, i am willingly to take it no matter wad. i will always still be here to support and to help. my love and concern will always be near. i promise.

.../// LuCiFiEd \\\...

Liar Liar Liar !!!!!

2006-03-18T12:58:00.000+08:00

Starting to find that u r actually really so fake, been quite some time u appeared in my life... and why why did i choose to believe u in the 1st place. maybe i am dumb ba... do wad ever u wan, u freaking liar, hope u burn in hell and die for all i fu*king hell care... i dun wish to curse u any more further cuz i tot of the karma mei always scold mi bout. if u wanna do anything do it in a upright manner, dun hide in the shadows and show those little pattern. i hate that. dun let mi hav the chance to catch u red-handed. trust mi, i dunno wad i will do. i dun even dare to imagine. so u better pray hard, pray to wadever god u believe, before its too late. dun need to come and act like very concern bout mi still ask mi wad happen. juz find that u r very fake. so pls kindly fu*k out of my life... i hav many other things to handle and care. i hav no time to play with u...
For ppl reading this post... and wondering who i am tokin bout... might be u, might be the ppl ard u... think bout it carefully, hav u ever done anything wrong to the frens ard u. IF yes, den this post might be juz dedicated to u...

...// LuciFiEd \\...

Songs of Life...

2006-03-15T15:52:00.000+08:00

Heard this song recently, tears did drop one or two when i saw the lyrics, is a question i wanna ask? but somehow or other... something is stopping mi. maybe cuz i noe u still dunno?

夜里传来雨的声音
轻轻拨动心的旋律
情不自禁想起你
那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛
爱情需要一些呼吸
偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系
任你自由的来去
从此想念你只能放在我心里

你还爱我吗
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
为何你总是不说话
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗
好久没有你的消息
心里还惦记着你

在这冷冷的夜里
感觉那么的熟悉
好想再见你想听听你的声音
感情的路总让人好无助
我会学着面对独处
给深爱的你祝福

oh
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
这是我唯一的牵挂
不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你
你还爱我吗

/// ... LuCiFiEd ... \\

Somethings r better to be left unknown...

2006-03-14T04:51:00.000+08:00

Was tokin to one of my brothers today regarding his nick, den i realised that there r really many many things in life that r better to be left unknown or not to be revealed. is not that ppl r unwillingly to share it with u, but can you take it if someone really chose to tell u. sometimes i find being ignorant is really a good thing dun u all agree? but humans r juz weird beings that once they suspect something, they will hope to find out bout the truth, hoping that the bad things aint refering to them or juz plainly being "38"
Went to meet da jie juz now in the night, juz collected her phone bck from the dealers, thank godness the phone can be used again. but we faced a big prob that took the 2 of us bout 1 hr and a half to solve. and that was to unlock her memory card's password. Thank god we finally got the right code by cracking our heads, haha sometimes really feel like burning her hair ar!!
After the phone was fixed, her mood was slightly better le, so we were chatting bout many things, of cuz i chose to tell her some choices and things which i told "her".
I asked her, "do u think i am wrong for saying all those things?"
Her reply to me was, "wads done cannot be undone, if u choose to do it, why not stand by it?"
Till now i am still thinking, it's juz in my head, no matter when. though i may seem to be very forgetful lately, but there r some things that will nv be forgotten.
There was a time when i accompanied u to "stars" there to find them, while we were on the bus i sent u a chinese msg, even though u were beside i chose to tell u over a sms. i clearly still remb wad i said in the sms, i really mean it. dunno if "u" still remb the msg? but i do!! and i hope there will be still a chance for mi to fulfill the promise i made...giv both of us a chance so as to break this barrier together ba...

...// LuCiFiEd \\...

(( Fun Week ))

2006-03-13T00:30:00.000+08:00

Haix...finally got the time to update my blog, been quite sometime since i updated it, this week wasnt at home for the whole week, due to our chalet, everything was cool so fun!! did many things that i hav nv tried before... think i am one of the last few to update things bout the chalet in our own blogs, didnt really hab the time to do it, i apoplogise haha **ya right?**

Anyway lets tok bout the chalet

Mon
Supposed to meet all of them at 12.30 in sch, but some of them were really late, including myself, by the time i got there i saw miao karen and ml in i.hub room, stayed there to tok bit of cock before getting the call that weian's car was here already. so we dumped all our bags into his car and we headed down to whitesands mall ourselves (me, miao, karen and yongda) first. Had a simple lunch in the food court of whitesands mall, the curry was good thanks to miao's intro, afterwhich went to shop for all the stuff needed for our chalet like food and drinks and many others. Not long after, we headed to our chalet ("the home for many of us for the week"). the place was damn big, with many rooms, the first thing we got there was to fight for a room to stay in wahaha i stayed with miao and karen in one room but dun worry is diff beds of cuz, mingliang and justin took the masterbed room, weian ivan yongda xx and the rest took the other room which can take up to 6 pax. Washed all the dishes with miao in the kitchen to prepare for our usage. afterwhich watched them play DDR, old sch game right? but been sometime since i last heard songs like "butterfly" and "do it all night". it does bring back lots and lots of memories. Night came, had a simple dinner in the chalet, played some mahjong and prepare for our big night...
YES!! the horrifying night cycling...
we left the chalet at bout 10pm...the following are our destinations
1) Bedok 85 to hav our dinner
2) East Coast Park
3) Fullerton (wanted to, but we drop the idea half way)
4) Safra Resort
5) Cargo Complex
6) Changi Village to have our prata supper

For the rest the next will be heading back to chalet by their bicycle, but was kinda diff for mi and miao, both of us were too tired le, so we took a cab back from changi village straight. Did some miracles which only a few know bout when we got back wahaha
We reached bck bout 6am lor so freaking tired, but poor miao still gotta go buy food from wet market with weian jeremy they all at 9am so she didnt really get to slp.

Tue
Woke up at like 3 plus, regretted walking in to the kitchen to discuss bout food with Lao da (Jeremy) wahaha after noeing that i noe how to cook...we stayed in the kitchen to cook the bee hoon for the bbq that night...cook like 3 packets lor... 1st pack was a failure cuz testing mah, den after which things will better le, but was really tiring cook all the bee hoon with not much help around. Night came, ppl started to come for the bbq, had a nice chat with Ying and Xue during the bbq, due to shortage of bee hoon i was forced to cook again... haha but it was fun, i had the whole kitchen to myself so i took out my shirt and started cooking, i added extra ingredients like my sweat for everyone wahaha *kidding*
but was nice of Ying to come in to keep mi company given the fact that the place was hot and oily. Thanks Auntie =p really appreciated...
after that cant really remb wad happened...was running ard the place, till miao received a call from home, so she needed to head home at bout 11pm. Had a tok with weian and we both send them miao,shan and lian home on weian's lancer. was on the way bck, suddenly we decided to go to "blue hut" for a drink... me and weian only... toked bout some things in our life, the place was great, drank someting that weian recommanded, cant really remb the name of the drink but was vodka energy mix...it roxs man wahaha afterwhich went bck to the chalet toked to eric abit and was dragged to play mahjong...but went to slp early cuz really too tired liao due to all the cooking and running ard wahaha

Wed
Slpt till kinda late that day was bored without miao ard, so walk ard and played some games lor on the PS we had... was about the go pick miao and lian bck to the chalet, juz nice they wanted to buy dinner back so we drove to pick miao and lian den might as well go buy dinner for them aso, went to 85 again to hav dinner and was tokin bout goin to MOS later as planned... so we reached bck bout 8 plus, asked the rest if they wanted to go... on justin's point of view there were some miscommunication la... i dunno and seriously i dun giv a fuck, i myself wanted to go see how the place was like as well...hhmm well so eventually we all decided to head down to MOS in the end... da jie aso went as well after work, the place was very nice, but juz freaking crowded INSIDE, there wasnt a que outside leh... weird? beats mi as well.. but we wun able to find a SINGLE table for our grp... so we juz walked ard tryin our luck. i went out half way to call irene and da jie, after which i went bck to look for the rest. didnt really noe where they were so i juz walked ard like some idiot haha but i manage to found this room in MOS which has little crowd, there were tables and even sofas haha cool right? so lucky wahaha so after all came and settle down le... they decided to head down to the R&B dance floor, which was freaking packed with ppl, cuz justin didnt wanna go so i left behind to company him... i asked da jie to help mi take care of miao at the dance floor. before they went to the dance floor we were planning on how to order our drinks, i was thinking of opening a bottle of martell or vodka one which cost bout 200 plus, but the rest think that was too ex so they resorted in ordering jug, got a vodka ribbena and vodka orange... the drinks taste more like jucies instead of vodka... so disappointed haix... after they left for the dance floor only left mi and justin so we had nothing to do so we 2 brothers drank quite abit wahaha, da jie came bck shortly telling mi she cant stand the crowd so she decided to come bck, we ordered tequila lime again to drink. after that da jie left to go down to devils to meet huili... so i was stonning with justin till the rest came bck. After they came bck, we drank and drank and took many many pics which i will post below. Before we left the place, mi, miao, irene ordered a round of tequila pop to bottoms up before we leave haha was fun though didnt noe irene can drink so well...justin was drunk liao by then haha needed to rushed to the toilet before we left cuz he needed to puke. when we reach the toilet most of it were occupied but i saw one with the door half open... so i juz pushed the door open to let justin puke as he cannot control le... as all of u noe i am a VERY RACIST person haha... there was a malay guy inside, he belongs to those very very fit type... and justin puked on his pants and shoes... at the moment the only thing that came to my mind was "oh fuck, goin to get whack by malay liao" haha but the guy was nice enuff to let the matter rest and even ask mi to take care of justin... wahaha lucky sia. Karen was the other drunk one that day, had a hard time trying to calm her down before we boarded the cab and headed back to the chalet... haha overall conclusion i dun consider MOS as a sucky place... juz crowded ba... quite a nice place.

Thur
Woke up at bout 9 plus to find that miao wasnt ard, when her wallet was still around... haha my sister got kidnapped...i ran ard the whole chalet but couldnt find her... after which den i noe actually they didnt slp the whole night and weian drove them out to go gai gai ard on the car... they came back shortly, to change and go to another place. they wanted to play pool but where got open so early one. as there was a empty space so i juz went together with them, we decided to go play bowling in the early morning. yes, we were the 1st customers... played 2 games and went bck to the chalet le, cooked lunch for some of them (miao n lian , justin, myself) before asking miao to go slp... well the rest were up and i didnt allow them to play mahjong as it will wake miao up. soon it was bout dinner time le, so we were all cracking heads on wad to cook or buy, end up we decided to buy back but not from 85 this time haha, went back to "techno" to buy some food and karen they stayed "home" to cook rice... send justin to fix his specs as well, bought some drinks for the night aso. After which got back to chalet, i gotta cook AGAIN haha this time is cook sting ray. After dinner me, miao, justin and lao da sat down to play mahjong overnight before our chalet ends the following day. Played till like 4-5 plus and we were too sian to continue le... so mi and miao went bck to our room to chat till morning.

Fri hhmm fri wasnt really happening...juz very very tired... after chatting with miao till she fell aslp, i went out to changi beach with weian, hopin to see the 1st sun rise in my life... but was disappointed. so we headed back to chalet and prepare to pack our stuff and headed home... miss my bed so so so much wahaha and we got our results that very day... lucky i manage to pass everything ///THANK GOD///